So here i am back again...
Watever... everything seems so pointless... though i wouldnt say that i am bohered too much. My problems and thoughts always go not farther then me, myself and people around me. Egoistic. Why not though? Whats wrong with thinking about your self, its my life, not anybody else's. Why should i thin much about others? they have their own head to think about themselves and i dont want it to sound like i'll do anything for me even harm other people cuz i m talking about a totally different egoism. I mean why should i think what is best for, lets say, my cousin and make her do somehting I think is better. She can think of everything herself, she can help herself...
I mean...the only purpose of our lifes is to do what we like, to please ourself, to make ourself, not anyone else, happier...
Some would protest... you'd say, what about charity, some people live to help the poor and homeless or th orphans...
yes, i agree but dont they do it cuz they actually LIKE it, cuz it make THEM feel good to... they too live to please themselves... yes, and even the most saint of saints are like that and you just cant call them egoistic... that would be just wrong... so is egoism actually good? well, i mena the egoism that doesnt go out of bounds... but who makes the bounds? those who llive by them... and its still people... but maybe tomorrow the bounds will stand out of bounds already. Maybe they will be totally different from today...
Then how can you know what is good and whats evil, how can you know what is wrong and what is right? All these morality we have in our days is so... so bendable but not fragile... no, its not that... it is ust made of rubber...
And they say when you do something wrong, then something stirs in your stomach thats says it is truly wrong but you can either ignore it or stop and listen... but were does it come from? cuz it is different with different people... my creature stirs when for example i steal something(not that i do), other's creatures keep quite even when their owners kill... so where does it all come from? Anybody has an answer...? If you do, let me know...