I fucked up... badly... I met this guy at the mall. I just asked him for a cigarette, but he had drugs... once I saw them I needed a fix. I feel so horrible. I gave him 150... and a blowjob. I didn't want to... I needed to... to get what I wanted. I feel so dirty. I'm going to take a shower. He gave me his number... I'm not going to throw it away. I might need to call him some other time... but Tohma can't know. He can never know.

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