in 2006, i wished that it would get easier with every goodbye.


now it just makes me miss you so much more.

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my head is spinning, my heart is pounding so hard and i feel the words implode inside my mouth.

and then i remember what was brought up during a brainstorm for kotex, paraphrased from the pop-psych book Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus. – "women constantly experience ups and downs in their lives (aka emotional rollercoaster)... for a woman to reach the highs, she must first go through the lowest lows."

no. fucking. shit.

now is one of those times i wish i had an instruction manual to this thing i call my life.

why.

why.

why.

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my head is spinning, my heart is pounding so hard and i feel the words implode inside my mouth.

and then i remember what was brought up during a brainstorm for kotex, paraphrased from the pop-psych book Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus. – "women constantly experience ups and downs in their lives (aka emotional rollercoaster)... for a woman to reach the highs, she must first go through the lowest lows."

no. fucking. shit.

now is one of those times i wish i had an instruction manual to this thing i call my life.

why.

why.

why.

http://users.livejournal.com/-ginseng/20552.html

my head is spinning, my heart is pounding so hard and i feel the words implode inside my mouth.

and then i remember what was brought up during a brainstorm for kotex, paraphrased from the pop-psych book Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus. – "women constantly experience ups and downs in their lives (aka emotional rollercoaster)... for a woman to reach the highs, she must first go through the lowest lows."

no. fucking. shit.

now is one of those times i wish i had an instruction manual to this thing i call my life.

why.

why.

why.

http://users.livejournal.com/_ginseng/20552.html

funny how there's an inherent tendency to want to fuck up your life – but when circumstances don't allow it, the disappointment is unavoidable.

https://users.livejournal.com/-ginseng/20479.html

funny how there's an inherent tendency to want to fuck up your life – but when circumstances don't allow it, the disappointment is unavoidable.

http://users.livejournal.com/-ginseng/20479.html

funny how there's an inherent tendency to want to fuck up your life – but when circumstances don't allow it, the disappointment is unavoidable.

http://users.livejournal.com/_ginseng/20479.html

first and foremost y'alls, happy meh-day daniel! :D i make emo mix-tape for you! i'm seven hours early, from where you are. hope london treats you kind today, cos i miss you 'foo.

anyway, just a quickie recap of what's happening in la-la-lauren land:



1. to make up for loss of hand, i've been insanely busy at work. i've even made "employee of the hour" on the company screensaver, which you can see if you squint real hard. i'm number 3. can't really remember what my caption reads, but pretty sure it's utter shite.



2. despite the crapload of work i've been doing, there's always time for some penis cake. it was "very yummy!" in the most bimbotic sense of the word.



3. above and beyond all that, i am completely obsessed with prison break. with nothing to do on weekends primarily, i am fully commited to watching wentworth miller do his sexy brood thang. yesss... i likeee... have i mentioned how i'm obsessed with prison break? (if you want to have a separate conversation about the show or him, please do so. i wait with bated breath.)

until later!

https://users.livejournal.com/-ginseng/20149.html

first and foremost y'alls, happy meh-day daniel! :D i make emo mix-tape for you! i'm seven hours early, from where you are. hope london treats you kind today, cos i miss you 'foo.

anyway, just a quickie recap of what's happening in la-la-lauren land:



1. to make up for loss of hand, i've been insanely busy at work. i've even made "employee of the hour" on the company screensaver, which you can see if you squint real hard. i'm number 3. can't really remember what my caption reads, but pretty sure it's utter shite.



2. despite the crapload of work i've been doing, there's always time for some penis cake. it was "very yummy!" in the most bimbotic sense of the word.



3. above and beyond all that, i am completely obsessed with prison break. with nothing to do on weekends primarily, i am fully commited to watching wentworth miller do his sexy brood thang. yesss... i likeee... have i mentioned how i'm obsessed with prison break? (if you want to have a separate conversation about the show or him, please do so. i wait with bated breath.)

until later!

http://users.livejournal.com/-ginseng/20149.html

first and foremost y'alls, happy meh-day daniel! :D i make emo mix-tape for you! i'm seven hours early, from where you are. hope london treats you kind today, cos i miss you 'foo.

anyway, just a quickie recap of what's happening in la-la-lauren land:



1. to make up for loss of hand, i've been insanely busy at work. i've even made "employee of the hour" on the company screensaver, which you can see if you squint real hard. i'm number 3. can't really remember what my caption reads, but pretty sure it's utter shite.



2. despite the crapload of work i've been doing, there's always time for some penis cake. it was "very yummy!" in the most bimbotic sense of the word.



3. above and beyond all that, i am completely obsessed with prison break. with nothing to do on weekends primarily, i am fully commited to watching wentworth miller do his sexy brood thang. yesss... i likeee... have i mentioned how i'm obsessed with prison break? (if you want to have a separate conversation about the show or him, please do so. i wait with bated breath.)

until later!

http://users.livejournal.com/_ginseng/20149.html

yes. i do. hate to say this. but yes.

masterclass (training program at work) wasn't so bad afterall.

i know the team and i really wanted to win. it's funny when people suddenly become so competitive and actually have fun at the same time. but it's alright, we had such a great time together, i daresay we were the most balanced team.

will definitely miss hanging out on fridays and saturdays, i'm actually sad :(

so sad i feel like a

https://users.livejournal.com/-ginseng/19956.html

yes. i do. hate to say this. but yes.

masterclass (training program at work) wasn't so bad afterall.

i know the team and i really wanted to win. it's funny when people suddenly become so competitive and actually have fun at the same time. but it's alright, we had such a great time together, i daresay we were the most balanced team.

will definitely miss hanging out on fridays and saturdays, i'm actually sad :(

so sad i feel like a

http://users.livejournal.com/-ginseng/19956.html

yes. i do. hate to say this. but yes.

masterclass (training program at work) wasn't so bad afterall.

i know the team and i really wanted to win. it's funny when people suddenly become so competitive and actually have fun at the same time. but it's alright, we had such a great time together, i daresay we were the most balanced team.

will definitely miss hanging out on fridays and saturdays, i'm actually sad :(

so sad i feel like a

http://users.livejournal.com/_ginseng/19956.html

some people can be so goddamn tedious. especially when their writing is delibrately semi-abstract, constantly post rationalising, thoroughly self indulgent bullshit designed to make oneself look/feel, cooler/smarter/better than everyone one else who uses words like "cool".

for fuck's sake, get over yourself already.

how did i ever think you were cool?

https://users.livejournal.com/-ginseng/19602.html

some people can be so goddamn tedious. especially when their writing is delibrately semi-abstract, constantly post rationalising, thoroughly self indulgent bullshit designed to make oneself look/feel, cooler/smarter/better than everyone one else who uses words like "cool".

for fuck's sake, get over yourself already.

how did i ever think you were cool?

http://users.livejournal.com/-ginseng/19602.html

some people can be so goddamn tedious. especially when their writing is delibrately semi-abstract, constantly post rationalising, thoroughly self indulgent bullshit designed to make oneself look/feel, cooler/smarter/better than everyone one else who uses words like "cool".

for fuck's sake, get over yourself already.

how did i ever think you were cool?

http://users.livejournal.com/_ginseng/19602.html

tonight was spent with nine guys and one (in my opinion, very) pretty girl.

we had beer, jaegermeisters, chicken wings, lots of laughter and those who knew the words (most of us did) sang along really loudly to bohemian rhapsody.



and still i felt so terribly out of place.

https://users.livejournal.com/-ginseng/19319.html

tonight was spent with nine guys and one (in my opinion, very) pretty girl.

we had beer, jaegermeisters, chicken wings, lots of laughter and those who knew the words (most of us did) sang along really loudly to bohemian rhapsody.



and still i felt so terribly out of place.

http://users.livejournal.com/-ginseng/19319.html

tonight was spent with nine guys and one (in my opinion, very) pretty girl.

we had beer, jaegermeisters, chicken wings, lots of laughter and those who knew the words (most of us did) sang along really loudly to bohemian rhapsody.



and still i felt so terribly out of place.

http://users.livejournal.com/_ginseng/19319.html

unlike many people, i actually prefer work over school. in retrospect, school although fun at times, was for the most part shite. art school is very self-indulgent, and ultimately a very big waste of energy and money. best of all, it produces wankers (yours truly included). however i can't quite put the blame on any one thing, or any one person. not that i want to anyway. i had a great three years. so what the hell is my point? i dont know.

anyway. i digress.

last friday, i oversaw my first tv shoot. it was awesome because i had five to six minions at any one time seiving out three tonnes of industrial grade powder-like sand into red plastic buckets. at the same time, the crew scurries about trying to recreate desert sand dunes in a 10ft by 10ft big sandbox, while i sort of look on half dazed half trying to look like i'm in control. (see above picture)

hmm... maybe that's why i like work so much.

(real work + minions) > (school work + ownself do)

night!

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