ustala videt` kak ob menya vyteraut nogi.

segodnja papa obradoval radostnoi vest`u - LETOM MY EDEM V AMERIKU!! budem iskat` mne zhil-ploshad`!!! ja prosto v eiforii!!!

vse mne govorjat ne zaciklivaisja na nem, zhivi dlja sebja.... A ja ne hochu! ne hochu ja zht` tolko dlja sebja... ja vse vremja tol`ko tak i zhla i chti?? NICHEGO HOROSHEGO! mne nadoelo vse...tol`ko rjadom s nim ja chuvstvuy sebja sovsem po-drugomu i mne ochen` prijatno eto oshushenie...

i went with Sam on concert and it was simply awesome!!! that was happened so fast
and after the concert, i had a meet and greet outside of the venue and i chatted with guys i asked questions about the photo op (the one in a prominent metal mag ...hhmmm..i think with the title Unusual and Suspect) and i asked that question in mind and Sam answered that and he said "we were doing the ones with suits, santa or criminal so the promoter said that they would use the one with the criminal male nudity (hahaha) eventually that would be the "Unusual and Suspect" with each member of DF doing a funny emotion and funny faces on them and that leaves Sam pretty embarrassing....!!! lol That was the question I have to ask at the time....

hmmm...blah blah..

The main thing! -I`ve lead these days extremely. Together with Sam we was going to concerts and hanging out with some guys tht he know... we dangled in bars and clubs in LA! We had romantic dinners together ...it was AWESOME!!! Probably u`ll think that this guy looks like alcoholic, stupid and mad....YES! HE IS! But he so gentle, tender and sincere.....Iam not assured but it seems like i fallin` in love...?? omg! Its sooo cool!!! I`m happy now! I`m really happy!

mnogo pisat` mne len`. takchto zapishu samoe osnovnoe.


novyi god prishel otvratitel`no...prishlo mnogo druzei i bylo veselo vcelom, no ja byla v takom naprjage potomuchto s nami byl S.T., mne kazalos` chto on ne spuskaet s mebja glaz, menja eto ochen` ugnetalo. Potom vse reshili ehat` v klub, no ja uzhe tak vymotalas` chto mne hotelos` poskoree lech` spat` i ja skazala chto u menja bolit golova i ja nikuda ne poedu.Vseh vyprovadila i nachala ubiratsja! )) v 5 utra!)) Gde-to cherez 10 minut pozvanil ST i sprosil ponastojashimu u menja bolit golova ili ja prosto ot vseh ustala, ja skazala chto i to i drugoe i on poobeshal togda zaehat` dnem. Legla spat` gte-to v 8 utra, a v 12 zazvonil telefon, eto konechno zhe byl ST, skazal chto stoit u dveri uzhe 15 minut))) Koroche on u menja probyl gde-to do treh dnja i dazhe ne pristaval, chto udivitel`no!)) Skazal chto skoro uedet po delam na 4 dnja... chuvstvuy, budu skuchat`!!! AAAA!! kak by mne v nego ne vlubitsja, a to mne do polnogo schast`ja tolko etogo i ne hvataet....

What I mean for you?

You look gently and tenderly.
But I do not feel sincerity from you.

It`s game? Tell me.

Tell... Yet late

rozhdestvo ja vsezhe otpraznovala v kompannii etih parnei, tam bylo eshe okolo 7 chelovek. my poehali v odin dorogoi klub i ja potratila VSE SVOI DEN`GI!!!!! teper` ja sovsem nishaja((

Slushau novuy pesny Roman Rain. mne ochen` nravitsja)) Zavtra utrom nado idti v kolledzh za kakimi-to testami, kotorye nam nuzhno sdat` posle novogo goda, tak chto seichas ja poidu uzhe spat` , a to sutra ne prosnus`))

 

ja nenavizhu rozhdestvo, no vsegda pozdravljau drugih s etim prazdnikom. segodnja ja ves` den` sidela v bare chto nahoditsja nepodaleku ot moego doma i izlivala dushu kakomu-to neznakomcu. etot chelovek skazal chto rabotaet nastroishikom v London Symphony Orchestra...mda^_^ byvaut zhe takie znakomstva. eshe on rasskazal chto ego zhena vygnala iz doma v kanon rozhdestva!! i teper` on vynuzhden sidet` zdes` v bare i zhdat` svoego druga poka tot ne vernetsja ot svoih roditeley, a potom oni poedut v zip center za vypivkoi i k druz`jam otmechat` rozhdestvo. Zval s soboi, no u menja ne bylo nikakogo zhelanija kuda-to ehat` i my dogovorilis` chto on priedet sam... Vot sizhu i zhdu ego kak dura. mozhet on uzhe zabyl obo mne? ili vse navral? Ladno, podozhdu eshe nemnogo . esli ne priedet ljagu spat` ^^ Nastroenie voobshe nikakoe. Zhdala chto Fred pozdravit, a on dazhe ne pozvonil!!!! Hotja ja znau chto on v Londone seichas.
 

 

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pozdravljau vseh s rozhdestvom!

 

 

 

One More - Dedicated For Life

ja znay, tak byvaet s kazhdym, vot prishel i moi chered.... ja tol`ko ne mogu ponjat` pochemu tak zhestoko? razve on ne mog skazat` eto mjagche? konechno mog, no ne zahotel.... naverno ja sama eto zasluzhila.... chto z..rasstalis` i ladno, ja uzhe ne perezhivau iz-za etogo. pytaus` otnositsja filosovski - ras ushlo, znachit eto ne moe.

a skoro budet rozhdestvo!!! chyt` bol`she mesjaca eshe ostalos`, a magaziny uzhe vse ukrashaut girljandami, ogon`kami i igrushkami. ja lublu rozhdestvo i zhdu ego kazhdyi god....vsegda kazhetsja chto v etot den` dolzhno byt` chudo! ...no, konechno nikakogo chuda ne proishodit, no ja vse ravno zhdu:)

chert!!! kak menja besjat vyskochki, schitaushie sebja vyshe drugih.

segodnja ja vycherknula eshe odno imja iz spiska moih druzei. obidno i bol`no, no uzhe ne tak kak bylo ran`she. pravil`no govorjat, chto so vremenem serdce pokryvaetsja shramami i perestaet chuvstvovat`. ja ochen` bous` chto so mnoi eto tozhe proizoidet((( ochen` bous`.

seichas sizhu v klasse i chut` ne plachy. .. mozhno bylo by eshe mnogo vsego napisat`, no seichas zakonchitsja pereriv i nado budet idti na zanjatija...... ja naverno ne otsizhu eshe 2 chasa. golova bolit i til`ko dumay o tom, chto skoro sovsem bez druzey ostanus`.... FUCK!!! protivno ot samoi sebja