We are putting my cat down today.....
I know that it is the right thing to do, but it just feels so wrong.
Since I've been home its been a battle between my mom and I about what we should do...and suprising even myself...I was the one arguing that we should put her down. But now that we are actually going to do it-I feel like a terrible person.
The thought of me driving my cat, that I have had my whole life, to the vet to sit there while they kill her seems so wrong....
I know she is miserable and there is nothing they can do but while I sit here she is meowing in the bathroom sticking her little paw out from under the door....
Its a good thing that I have to take my car in today to get the brakes checked because otherwise I probably would have just sat here all day crying.....

I just wish it could end a different way
I love her so much and this doesnt seem like the way to show it.