this datebook is dead there wont be any new post ...................

today i ll go to VESHKI and i hope i ll go on riding on my board but the chanses to go is lower now cause on last holidayas when i was in SAROCHANI i ve broken my finger . i ve a dislocation of it and now it doest hurt but i have a big bruise on my hand and by the way its the first time in my life that i ve damage myself (meaning broken smth or have a dislocation) So my parents can say that its very early to go and that my hand hasnt recovered yet or smth like that.....

Буду писать по русски так как такие эмоции не передать словами.Узнал я тут от хороших людей что один пиздобол и сказочник который недавно еще лежал с порваными яицами в больнице(Коля дневник ник хХх) решил мне сделать подлянку тоесть атомстить ,УХАХА я долго смеялся. ЕЩе уточнили что он распостроняет гон на меня дорогим мне людям . Вот что хочу я сказать тебе ебаный ты сосунок начни жить реальной жизнью а не той которую ты выдумываешь себе а потом пиздоболишь про нее девушкам думая что люди настолько тупы чтобы верить в твой детскии бред,так что заткни свое хлебало нихуя ты мне не сделаешь чмошник не стоит даже пытаться..............

now i'm sitting in front of my computer and listen to a wonderful song ,it reminds me about one day and about one person..................
Звери - Напитки покрепче
И нигде и ни во сколько
Повстречались и забыли
Брызги, капельки, осколки
Никого не зацепили

Брызги, капельки . на ветер
И тебя никто не тронет
Дядя Стёпа на конфете
Помещается в ладони

Напитки покрепче
Слова покороче
Так проще, так легче
Стираются ночи

Звонки без ответа
Слова и улыбки
Вчерашнее лето
Смешная ошибка

А давай как будто праздник
В небо шарики салюты
Синий, белый, жёлтый, красный
Брызги, капельки, минуты

Падаю на ровном месте
Зацепиться бы за воздух
Там, где нолик, ставил крестик
Там, где рано, ставил поздно

Напитки покрепче
Слова покороче
Так проще, так легче
Стираются ночи

Звонки без ответа
Слова и улыбки
Вчерашнее лето
Смешная ошибка

Брызги, капельки, минуты
Становился чемпионом
Выбирал себе маршруты
Выбирал себе перроны

И нигде и ни во сколько
Что бы не было вопросов
Брызги, капельки, осколки
Холостые папиросы

Напитки покрепче
Слова покороче
Так проще, так легче
Стираются ночи

Звонки без ответа
Слова и улыбки
Вчерашнее лето
Смешная ошибка

she cant hide no matter how hard she tries
her secret diguise behind the lies
in the night she cries away her thoughts
with eyes shut tight
starin' at her inside
all her friends know why she cant sleep at night
all her family ask if she's alright
all she wanna do is get rid of this hell
well all she gotta do is stop kidding herself


she can only fool herself for so long
she can only fool herself for so long
she can only fool herself for so long
(i'm too weak to face me)


i never know
just why you lie
so far away, far away
from me
i never know
just why you lie
so far away, far away
from me

when he comes to had it with his life he cant be told
says he's got it all under control
thinks he knows its not a problem he's stuck with
but in reality
he'll probably just quit
an addict; he cant hold the reins of
pain is worse cause his friends have it the same
tries to slow down the problem he's got
but cant get off the carousel 'til he makes it stop


she can only fool herself for so long
she can only fool herself for so long
can only fool herself for so long
(i'm too weak to face me)

Part of me won't go away
Everyday reminded how much I hate it
Weighted against the consequences
Can't live without it so it's senseless
Wanna cut it out of my soul
And just live with a gaping hole
Take control of my life
And wash out all the burnt taste
I made the problems in the first place
Hang my head low 'cause it's part of me
Ya hardly see right next to the heart of me
Heard of me the routine scar
New cuts cover where the old ones are
And now I'm sick of this
I can't stand the sandpaper
thoughts that grade on my sanity
I rather not even be then the man
that's staring in the mirror through me
Cut myself free willingly
Stop just what's killing me
Cut myself free willingly
Stop just what's killing me
Cut myself free willingly
Stop just what's killing me
Cut myself free willingly
Stop just what's killing me

I feel it everyday
I feel I made my way
I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside
Swallowing me

Freedom can be frightening if you've never felt it
Once it's been dealt with you feel like you've
been touched by something angelic
And then melted down into a pool of peace
Cease to be the animal you used to be
Remove the broken parts you know were wrong
And feel the calm when the problem's all gone
And then you start to see another
piece of yourself that you can't let be
Memories of the last fight to free yourself
Take it to the depths of the bottom of the well
And now you know you can choose
to lose the part in your heart
Where your insides bruise
You can live if you're willing to
Put a stop to just what's killing you

Cut myself free willingly
Stop just what's killing me
Cut myself free willingly
Stop just what's killing me
Cut myself free willingly
Stop just what's killing me
Cut myself free willingly
Stop just what's killing me

I feel it everyday
I feel I made my way
I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside
Swallowing me

Alive in me, inside of me,
a part of me screams away silently
This part of me won't go away,
part of me won't go away

Everywhere I look around
I see how everything aught to be
Every time I see myself there's
always something wrong with me

I feel it everyday
I feel I made my way
I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside
Swallowing me
I feel it everyday
I feel I made my way
I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside
Swallowing me

I feel it swell up inside,
swell up inside, swallowing me
I feel it swell up inside,
swell up inside, swallowing me

On saturday i went on riding on my board with Vitalik and Kirill,I was pleased that Vit mentioned to invite me with them (thank you VIT)So we went to Volen i had a feeling that our riding wouldnt be good ,i was right as it was the year before at the begining of the season not all spa were opened thats why there were a lot of people .There were long queues and sorry dont know how it will be in english(podjemnik) often stopped but after pause and GLINTVEIN our riding became better (as it seems for me) we changed the route and i started jumping....last try was fantastic i finally made 180
So now there is another disadvantage i have an ache in my ass(podrozymevau kopchik) but its strange because i didnt land to my ass ,i have an ache in my shoulder but i remember the lending to my arm ...so its very strange but in fact it doesnt metter .
after Volen we went to MC donald)))) then to Vitalik and watched BOOMER in goblin translation))) so saturday was rather interesting though the riding wasnt so fantastik but lets make conclusions next holidays i think we will go to my favourite spa SAROCHANI

Today Vitalik Kiril and i went to jump on our boards into the wood cause the season isnt open....
So at first kiril tried to do 180 and crashed onto his hand then i tried to do the same ,i didt crashed anything i made 180 but in the end i fell cause there were a lot of snow and my board got itno this mass and stucked....
then vitalik tried to do 180 the result was the same as mine he made a trick but stucked in snow so then we decided to rec this trick Kiril started shooting (very good movies)

This for my darling Anny.I'm sorry that I haven't write you anything like you did,so this is what i wanted to say for you

Desperate for changing starving for truth
closer to where I started chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
Forgetting all I'm lacking completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation you take all of me
Now I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you
There is nothing else to lose
There is nothing else to find
There is nothing in the world that could change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
Desperate for changing starving for truth
closer to where I started chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you
Just hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment here with you

Today Jenek and i decided to go to Arina and take our presents(c)
thanks my darling for such present.....but it would be better if you come to Moscow i think it will be the most exciting present