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When your birthday is quite at hand you start feeling a bit old, a bit more melancholic and reflecting.
What have I achieved during this year? Have I got anywhere?And I also seem to feel like drawing some results.
The first higher education is over as well as my first real love.As the doors were closed I perceived that the gates to my and his heart were closed as well.
Did I love him? Surely I did. We were one unit, one soul. He even didn't need to say a word for me to understand him. And what's now? Never to hear his voice again? Never to see his cursory smile? How come?.....
But may be it's for the better.
I had a good time in the country house with my friends though now all is over with it.
Starting the post-graduate education I thought I found what I was longing for, but at present I understand that all this university "ist nur ein Geschaft". Thus now, facing also some problems with mathematical&economic models, personnel management, economic theory I am really eager to stop this all and go to courses at Plekhanov's academy.
This year as my Indian friend foretold me, I travelled quite a lot what brought its fruit.
I've become a different person.
and... this is the 1st birthday I will celebrate alone, in a different country- sounds so strange...
so many changes in my life that I can hardly steal some time for writing poems ansd songs that I used to do.
How can I come to senses and return my previous life once again?
and the main question....- should I actually do it ... or may be not...?

Having my birthday celebrated in Egypt I just grasped it was not only a birthday (the best one in my life) but a kind of honeymoon. And... a lesson as well. Now I am in the know what and WHOM I want. I wanna be with RAGAB SABRI MOHAMMED MANSOUR SALEM. Can't believe my eyes but I do. He is the turning point in my life who managed to change it and make it unrecognisable.and... if ALL (my health) is OK I would like to share my life with him whatever difficulties we face in the future. If he is away I will DIE.