Because it cuts so deep to see myself wishing upon melting stars

I cut the cord I finally give in...

Beyond visions of wretched smiles

And the dread that they've befriended

I have seen an end to you and I

(when did "we" begin)

And a warped sense of being that I embrace must exist

And we with whole hearts yet broken words

We dream of wisdom but I yearn only for you

You will destroy me with words that you have never spoken...

I've drawn a picture of us twisted within

Yet below this world I absorb life from portraits
As long as we remain abreast of one another we will never meet each other


As long as we whisper to one another we will never fully hear each other

As long as my eyelids are weighed down by desire and one dying wish

I will never know when you appear

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Lost gray pictures of my past stain greener pastures of my future

Remembrance and recognition forces me to reconsider

I am seeking to regress and recreating what I've found a new beginning torn away

I'm spiraling spiraling down

Empty hands on the ends of these reaching arms need the touch of something real

Year by year we separate further

We are forgetting how to feel

For at the end of this long rope I hang in wait of fading echoes

Uncertainty haunts my everything

I look into tomorrow and I see nothing...

So tell me how it feels to be me

I've lost so much I cannot recall my identity

I would die for yesterday not caring where I need to go

Reshape relationships back into what I used to know

Tomorrow is so far and I no longer want to find a replacement

For all these pictures that are lost in my mind