Ne znau, 4to so mnoy tvoritsya, vrode vse xorosho, jalovat'sya ne na 4to. Segodnya , sovsem slu4ayno, videla togo 4eloveka, kotorogo sovsem ne xotela by uvidet', no mojet i eto xorosho, eta vstre4a zastavila menya eshe bol'she ubeditsya v moix 4uvstvax.
To, 4to mne pomogaet jit' opyat' so mnoy, no vse ravno est' to malen'koe NO, kotoroe vsegda derjit v napryajenii.

otdala telefon napo4inku, posmotrim, 4to iz etogo viydet.

ujasno sku4au nesmotrya na to 4to ne videlis' vsego neskol'ko 4asov, nadeus' telefon segodnya sdelaut, i ya smogu ................imet' xot' kakuyu-to svyaz'
LUBLU !!!!!!!!!!!

Papa kupil mne noviy telefon, no poka ya prishla domoy ego sestra uje uspela isportit', sterla vsu programmu. Prishla segodnya na rabotu a zarplatu ewe ne prinesli, beshenaya siju, budu jdat' 1 chisla.A ya tak rass4ityvala na eti den'gi.....
V4era prishla domuy pyanaya do 4ertikov, skoree prinesli. Videla son kotoriy, 4estno govorya menya nastorojil, utrom polu4ila SMS, 4to bylo podtverjdeniem etogo sna. Vobshem denyok u menya na4alsya.......:)
No zato v4erashniy ves den'.................... ya ne zabudu NIKOGDA, pravda byl odin moment, kotorogo ya by ne xotela
Nu ladno posmotrim, 4to mne prineset segodnyashniy den'

Segodnya u menya ukrali telefon, na rabote. Ujasno obidno, xot' by kartu vernuli, ne znau 4to delat'....ya kak-raz zanimalas' dlya ekzamena, no vse sily issyakli, navernoe na ekzamen ne poydu, ostavlu neyavku
Golova raskalyvaetsya !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Segodnya mne prinisli disk Jami Roquai, lublu ego , I obojau pesnu “King for a day”
Siju slushau, jdu poka proydet vremya, A ewe obojau pesnu “Virtual insanity”
Vobshem takie vot dela 


LUBLU!!!!!

Segodnya vydalsya uda4niy den’, ya polu4ila 5 po ekzamenu, ne ojidala, 4to tak legko…potom provela xoroshee vremya s podrugoy, kupila kole4ko, mne ono nravitsya
Vot was prishla na rabotu, poka ni4ego, posmotrim kak budet k koncu dnya, Roma obeshal zayti.
Nastroenie gorazdo lu4she 4em ya ojidala.
Ostalsya eshe odin ekzamen, samiy slojniy.

Time, it needs time
To win back your love again.
I will be there, I will be there.

Love, only love
Can bring back your love someday.
I will be there, I will be there.

Your pride has build a wall, so strong
That I can't get through.
Is there really no chance
To start once again?
I'm loving you.

I'm still loving you
I need your love.

Segodnya na ekzamen ne poshla, skoree poshla no ne zashla, polnogo materiala ne bylo, mogla polu4it' 4 no ne zaxotela, poydu zavtra.
polu4ila stepuxu, no ot nee ni4ego uje ne ostalos', zapolnila kartu, lu4shego oshusheniya byt' ne mojet :)
Prishla na rabotu, vrode vse v poryadke, ve4erom Roma zaydet za mnoy, kuda-nibud' poydem
Segodnya ya ego videla vo sne, kak-budto on menya celoval, On skazal, 4to son mojem voplotit' v real'nost', na ya ego vosprinimayu kak druga , ne bol'she.
Lubov' u menya est'!!!!!!!!!
Ya ee obojayu.

Kak mne nexvataet togo tepla, kotoroe bylo ryadom. Tot zapax, kotoriy inogda budil menya I s kotorym ya zasypala.
Moy den’ sovsem rasformirovalsya. Ya ne znayu, 4to mne delat’? Ran’she ya znala, 4to xot’ kakoy-to moment moego dnya ya uviju ee, ya jdala etogo momenta I moy den’ preobretal smysl, a was ya…..
Ya proshu tebya: ostav’ mne, pojaluysta, svou ten’.

Zavtra u menya ekzamen, ni4ego ne znayu - xotya ,po4emu-to ne boyus', was mne ne do etogo.
Sebya pytayus' otvle4 urokami, posmotrim naskol'ko eto real'no.

Storaus’ derjat’sya, ne znau kak polu4aetsya, no….
Ya ne mogu ni4ego predprinyat’, krome kak jdat’. Vremya tormozit, rabota ewe bol’she vvodit v depressiu, zanimau sebya 4em mogu, no mysli vse ravno v drugom meste.
Ne mogu otklu4itsya ni na minutu. Dumau tol’ko……, vse vokrug napominaet tol’ko obo dnom.
Ya s takim trudom nashla sebys i snova poteryala .
Ne mogu ponyat’….pochemu?
Molu tol’ko obo dnom, 4tob bog dal ey sil lubit’.

Segodnya uje 14, a mne vse lu4she ne stanovitsya, slezy neproizvil’no vykatyvayutsya iz glaz.
Byla u mamy v magazine, sosku4ilas’ po ney xotya ran’she etogo za soboy ne zame4ala., ona skazala, 4to o4en’ nas lubit, I tol’ko my smysl ee jizni, ya rasplakalas’, potomu 4to imenno eti slova was pri4inyayut mne ogromnuyu bol’.
ya jivu kak zombie, mne ni4ego ne nado, ya po4ti ne em, po4ti ne splu, ya ne xo4u xodit’, ne xo4u obshat’sya s lud’mi, ne xo4u nikogo videt’ – eto ujasno, mne protivno daje ot samoy sebya.