Would like to tell you, my love, I do feel so sad
Would like to tell you, my love, there's so much regret
But I can't find the words and I guess you don't care
Maybe if I shut up pain'll be easy to bear.

pt. 1 -- glam's undead.
pt. 2 -- the matrix loves you.

I don't want to be dominant.
I don't want to be "the elder sister"; I never was the younger.
I don't want to be a "mother-figure" to anyone; I never was a daughter.
and I surely don't want to be a fucking role-model!
*yeah, kids, I suck. don't admire me.

sometimes I tend to see hints where there probably aren't any.
luckily I never react when I'm not sure though.
and I do hope she missed you too.

it's just your own little creepy way to kiss my tears away. to take away my pain by making it slowly fade away. no fuel - no fire; now I know it too. thank you for sharing this experience.

fuck these sick games where one can't even tell if the other still actually plays.

В колонках играет - skryabin
is a fuckin' camwhore oO

вон нахуй из моей головы, ты мне никто и звать тебя никак.

...and then I agree, like yeah, that kinda sucks, and u say yeah and smile, and I get some masochistic pleasure, and everyone's happy again.

В колонках играет - linda - strah
somewhere in the middle of those endless dull summer days of heat and void I was sitting on the bathroom floor in that violet dress, thinking about how much more loads of shit were ahead.
and they were countless indeed.
someone please cancel this stupid looped process. uninstall me. erase me.

some things should come before the others. I can be proud of myself, at least I know what's really important, both at the moment and in life generally.
and yeah, weather sucks. it's not spring, no way.
when are we having Easter, I wonder.

such a waste of energy.
smooth and light and clean and simple - this is how I'd like my life to be.

love is not an argument. I don't even want you to hurt tonight.
I feel the deathly and reviving power of indifference. it's oh so wrong, I guess.

sometimes I wish I was romantic. or just innocent; it would be even better. with unstained mind and soul and with eyes wide open, ready to believe this world. though I realize it's rather stupid.
or maybe I'd like to have some *common* problems, you know, like some fucked up love or smth. idnk, I just sometimes get tired of lacking understanding.

В колонках играет - dnb
I cried today.
and behaved like a neurotic bitch.
though not really feeling pain inside.
I'm just bored and like some drama now and then, nothing worth talking about in fact.

В колонках играет - prodigy
Настроение сейчас - such a relief

work - home - web.
looks like I'm happy.
now it's crystal clear.
now I know what _love_ is.
now I belong.

it's important to be grateful.

when I hear fat women winsomely call themselves “dumplings”, I’m about to throw up. does anyone really fuck those bakery goods?