Настроение сейчас - restless

I have that feeling that it could be now or never. If anymore years later then I can't change anything, cant make unthaughtful decisions. I don't know if what I have now I could call happiness or welth or stability in life...I definatly don't have any stability in my mind, moreover I don't even know what's gonna happen tomorow...or I do and that's the problem and my whole life gets written like a permanent timetable for the rest of my life. No thoughts on it yet. No useful thoughts, many lost ones.