В колонках играет - Tokio Hotel "THEMA №1"
Настроение сейчас - ОТЛИЧНОЕ!!!(до сих пор сушняк...)

НАКОНЕЦ-ТО МНЕ 18!!!)))
С 10 на 11 февраля праздновала ДР в инфинити...было клево: 2 столика, много выпивки, хорошая музыка, приятная обстановка...короче все было именно так как надо, я даже и не предполагала, что так хорошо проведем время...были только самые близкие мне люди, с которыми было очень приятно поболтать, посидеть в одной компании...танцевать почти не танцевала, в основном пыталась переорать музыку))) но мне это неплохо удавалось))) там был мой одноклассник с которым мы зныкомы с 5 лет, было столько воспоминаний радостных, что настроение с каждой минутой только улучшалось!:yahoo: к сожалению он не пил, тк был за рулем...(((
напилась я так, как еще никогда не напивалась! пила все что было на столе и все что несли! советую попробовать коктель "11 сентября": 2е стопки: в одной Absent, в другой шампанское с чем-то: поджигают и выпиваешь одновременно из 2х стопок через 2е трубочки... короче, просто зашибись!
СПАСИБО всем кто пришел, кто поздравил! было очень очень приятно!!! ВСЕХ ЛЮБЛЮ!!!

В колонках играет - NICHEGO
Настроение сейчас - YBIJSTVENNOE

is he motherfucker an asshole? is he stupid? fucken idiot!!! gonna kill somenone... she is a fucken bitch, she uses him and he doesn't see that, what a fucken stupid fool!!!! i'm not jealous, cause he is my friend and i'm worried about him... dunno how to make him understand... it seems that he is blind ands doesn't see anything further than his nose is... she is a fucked up hairy pursy pussy... hate her, gonna kill her... have so many words and feelings, but can't explain them here in the diary... why did he took her back??? she isn't worth it..she just needs a registration in Moscow, nothing else...he is a tasty morsel for her: has got a flat, a car, Moscow registration, a job, money(not much but enough for life being)... everything that she needs... he doesn't love her, may be she is a sex giant, but don't think so... can't understand him, hope he will explain me everything soon... i'm sure that is not innocent, she must have done something in her past and i will find it out, no matter how hard it will be for me!!! I'LL FIND OUT THE TRUTH AND SHE WILL FEEL SORRY FOR CROSSING MY ROAD!!!FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!

Life without friendship
Is like the dawn without the sun
Life without friendship
Is like the sky without the moon
When the evening has begun
Life without friendship
Is like a rose without rain
Life without friendship
Just wouldn’t be the same
Life without friendship
Is like a ship without a sea
Life without friendship
Just could not be
Without a friend like you and me

Фотографии lubabylu : New Year 2007

had it at Marina's countryhouse

В колонках играет - Christina Strmer "IMMER AN EUCH GEGLAUBT"
Настроение сейчас - sama ne znaju

so many things happened in such a short period of time! from the 27th of January till the 2nd of February i was in St.-Petersburg at my relatives...didn't do much there, just a lot of shopping, restaurants and cinema...had a nice rest...when i came i had a party at home on friday: my best girlfriend and my ex-driver(he is a friend of mine) came to my home, as my parents were still in St.-P. it was a hard night, cause drank so much, smoked a lot, it was like a ride on helicopter, my head was going round with the velocity of light!!! first i tried to get closer to my friend, but she refused...((( then she woke up my bodyguard and made him an erotic massage, they nearly fucked...thanks god they didn't do that, cause i would look at them in a different way after that... than my ex-dr. came back (he had some busines to do) and we drank more... finally we (i, my gfr and my ex-dr) went to my mom's room to have a sleep there, i was like in prostration... i couldn't move, not even talking about making any sound... suddenly i felt that the bad was moving, i understood what was starting to go on, than my gfr and ex-dr left room and went to the big room (i understood by the sound of the closing of the door, cause i know that sound like my five fingers)and THAT started... they had sex, but i decided to have a sleep and not pay attention to that... the next day we woke up and she told me everything... we were looking for her underwear for half an hour, cause we couldn't find it anywhere... finally i found her pants in my sofa in the big room... thanks god we found them, cause if my mom would do that she would kill me... my bodyguard told me that he couldn't fall asleep cause of the sound of the sofa knocking on the wall xaxaxaxa...... we were so fucked up, we could hardly stand on our foot, but we took my ex-dr and went to the cinema... today we were in the cinema too watched the film "aces of trumps".. it is such a cool film!!! it is worth watching it!

В колонках играет - RAPSOUL "GOTT SCHENK IHR FLUGEL"
Настроение сейчас - GUESS WONDERFUL)))

so many new events happened in the past few days, dunno what to start with...
23.01.07. after i passed the exam i and my best girlfriend went to the cinema together with my bodyguard and ex-driver (now my bodyguard drive the car, which my dad gave us). in the cinema i slept through the whole film (didn't sleep the previous night was getting ready for the exam in maths). when we were taking my ex-driver home one thing happened that shocked me a lot... the 6th feeling told me to turn to the back seet and i saw...THE WAY MY BEST FRIEND AND HE WERE KISSING!!!... i had such a shock that i couldn't even say a word...i couldn't imagine these happen...i had so many feelings and impressions, which i still can't explain... she told me after when we were chatting on the phone, that i had such a look that she even got scared...talked to my bodyguard about that (as usual he missed everything)... he was shocked too... bu7t now everyone thinks that i was jealous (it's not true)... talked to my ex-driver by sms: about my friend, about feelings and everything like that...he thought that i feel something to him, explained him that we are just friends, nothing more...so the whole night was thinking about this world, my life and love...was sad...
24.01.07. today is my ex-drivers birthday! met Marina, went to the shops to buy him a present and to buy some clothes and accessorise for me. didn't buy a lot...just few things...to my ex-driver i bought a cool t-shirt PLAYBOY and a photo frame to put there a photo of four of us: me, Marina, him and Serega (my bodyguard); also bought a lot of postcards!!! couldn't meet today with nim, as he had guests at home and couldn't make them waiting, decided to meet the next day...Marina stayed with me at my home for night...talked a lot about everything, started watching one film three times... when we went sleeping did some naughty things (don't want to tell them)...
25.01.07. slept only about 3 hours... went to the salon to have my hair cut and coloured into the black... then went to the cinema watched the film "BLOOD AND CHOCOLATE", I LIKED IT A LOT!!!it's worth watching it... after that met with the ex-driver in the cafe near dad's work, sat there for a while, talked a bit... after that went to meet dad near my home, talked about everything... after that went home and fallen asleep immediately (was so tired)...
26.01.07. got up at 12.30, was so tired to get up, seemed that could sleep for 24 hours more, but i had manicure and pedicure at 13.30... had that stuff, than met Marina and went to the cinema... watched the film "PRESTIGE", the great film!!!then had a lil shopping and went home...did nithing at home, just sat in the internet, still sitting and writting this diary...it is already 27.01.07. today going to my brother's birthday and after that leaving to St Petersburg...dunno what i'll be doing without internet...
i guess that's all i wanted to write...

В колонках играет - Tokio Hotel "DURCH DEN MONSUN"
Настроение сейчас - SUPPPPPEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!))))))

today passed my last exam in maths, got 4!!!!)))))
feel so happy and so excited... couldn't imagine, that i had enough knowledge and abilities to do such a great job! have so many different positive feelings, that even hard to count all of them here!! it is the first session i had in my life...i feel so proud of myself!!!

В колонках играет - La Fee "Virus"
Настроение сейчас - не могу понять какое...

on tuesday we are having maths exam...so nervous even scared...it is gonna be the hardest one...dunno how to do it, cause dunno how to learn all that shit...i feel like: schrei so laut du kannst...wanna get 5,but don't have enough knowledge...
now about love...ich habe zwei Jungen, wie ich liebe, aber nie von sie weiss das oder lieben mich...ich weiss nicht was ich machen muss...kann nicht seine namen sagen, aber viele leute weiss ihnen... (извиняюсь за мой кривой немецкий, не учила его уже 2 года...:)))))
один очень хороший человечек сказал,что это стихотворение про меня...и я с этим абсолютно согласна...
Тобой дышу я каждый день,
Живу, лишь о тебе мечтая.
Твой образ всё преследует меня как тень,
Что делать без тебя мне, я не знаю.

Теперь душа моя принадлежит тебе.
Любовью сердце обладает.
И каждый день живу я как во сне,
Тебя с собою рядом представляю.

В колонках играет - Tokio Hotel "SCHREI"
Настроение сейчас - weiss nicht

SCHREI!
Stehst auf und kriegst gesagt, wohin du geh'n sollst
Und wenn du da bist, horst du auch noch, was du denken sollst.
Danke, das war mal weider echt'n geiler Tag
Sagst nichts, und keiner fragt dich: "Sag mal, willst du das?"

Nein, nein, nein, nein, nein, nein, nein, nein, nein, nein, nein ,nein, nein

Schrei!
Bis du, du selbst bist
Schrei!
Auch wenn es das letzte ist
Schrei!
Auch wenn es weh tut!
Schrei so laut du kannst

Schrei!
Bis du, du selbst bist
Schrei!
Auch wenn es das letzte ist
Schrei!
Auch wenn es weh tut!
Schrei so laut du kannst
Schrei (Schrei so laut du kannst)

Pass auf! Rattenfanger lauern uberall
Verfolgen dich und greifen nach dir aus dem Hinterhalt
Versprechen dir alles, wovon du nie getraumt hast
Und irgendwann ist es zu spat und dann brauchst du das

Nein, nein, nein, nein, nein, nein, nein, nein, nein, nein, nein ,nein, nein

Schrei!
Bis du, du selbst bist
Schrei!
Auch wenn es das letzte ist
Schrei!
Auch wenn es weh tut!
Schrei so laut du kannst

Schrei!
Bis du, du selbst bist
Schrei!
Auch wenn es das letzte ist
Schrei!
Auch wenn es weh tut!
Schrei so laut du kannst

Schrei

Zuruck zum Nullpunkt, jetzt kommt eure Zeit
Lasst sie wissen, wer ihr wirklich seid

Schrei so laut du kannst
Schrei so laut du kannst

Jetzt ist unsere Zeit!

Schrei!
Bis du, du selbst bist
Schrei!
Auch wenn es das letzte ist
Schrei!
Auch wenn es weh tut!
Schrei so laut du kannst

Schrei!
Bis du, du selbst bist
Schrei!
Auch wenn es das letzte ist
Schrei!
Auch wenn es weh tut!
Schrei so laut du kannst

(Und jetzt schweig!)

Nein!
Well du, du selbst bist
Nein!
Und wenn es das Letzte ist
Nein!
Weil es so weh tut!
Schrei so laut du kannst

Nein, nein, nein, nein, nein, nein

Schrei so laut du kannst!

Schrei!

В колонках играет - Ёлка "Девочка-студентка"
Настроение сейчас - не пойму

two exams passed, had automats...two more left...have to pass maths, it's gonna be so hard, cause have to learn a lot and have to do all exercises from the book to be clever enough to pass this exam...
today took my aunt's old car for my bodyguards to drive me everywhere i need...fucken car, really...opel astra of the year 1998...

В колонках играет - Tokio Hotel "RETTE MICH"
Настроение сейчас - хуже некуда....

dunno how to stop this... every day...every night...every hour...every minute...every second...thinking only about him...there is no one or nothing I can think about now (except my best friends...my head is going around, my breath stops, my heart beats as a crazy one, have not enough air...I understand, that can't do anything to get him, to make him mine...but realizing this and all the truth about my situation makes me feeling even worse and worse...HELP ME!!! HELP ME!!! RETTE MICH!!! this is what I want to shout, but have no voice, have no strength to do that...knowing that have people. whom I can talk to makes me feeling better, but not much...when I'm not on my own, put a nice smile on my face, so that nobody could see the real me...singing inside "zum ersten mal alleine...komm und rette mich...komm und rette mich"...

В колонках играет - Tokio Hotel "SCHREI"
Настроение сейчас - просто зашибись!!!)))

фуф, наконец-то я сдала все зачеты!!!!!!!!! сегодня был последний: по отечественной истории... и я получила ЗАЧЕТ!!! господи, так рада, что аж словами не передашь... просто чуть в штаны не наделала от счастья! вот теперь тока надо к истории социологии готовиться, чтобы получить за тест хорошую оценку, а затем автомат по экзамену!

В колонках играет - Ёлка
Настроение сейчас - просто замечательное

сегодня сдавала зачет по экономической теории в виде теста. страшно было до смерти, т.к. списать было не реально потому, что наш лектор был в аудитории и палил абсолютно всех... писать пришлось самой... тест был сложный, аж было готова уже идти опять переписывать 22 декабря. оказалось,что сразу после этого у нас был семенар по этому предмету, где проверяли наши тесты. мой был в самом конце. я сидела и молилась, чтобы я набрала эти 8 плюсов и получила зачет... думала чувств лишусь... вдруг девчонки заорали мое имя и слово зачет!... господи, у меня ЗАЧЕТ!!! я была так рада, что словами невозможно описать! у меня уже целых 5 зачетов стоят в зачетной книжке...

Фотографии lubabylu : 18.12.2006. Fun at University

Сегодня в университете мы с Мариной и Валей так прикалывались! У нас было всего 2 пары. Тем не менее мы на одну пару так и не пошли. Вместе этого мы прикалывались перед соц. факом. Мы запихали Марине под юбку куртку, сделав ей ТАКУЮ жопу, что JLo стоит в сторонке и курит! Потом запихали вторую куртку под кофту так, что получилися то ли живот, то ли сиськи, хрен его поймет! Угарали все: кто мимо проходил с других факов, народ с нашего соц. фака, народ, выглядывающий из окон! Я была папарацци: кино, фото... В общем оторвались по полной!

Фотографии lubabylu : Marina & Valia

Was ist loss mit mir? Ich weiB nicht. Ich liebe eine Junge, aber Ich habe die andere Junge, wer Ich liebe nicht, aber Ich denke, dass er ist sehr attraktive. Keine Freunden konnen mir helfen. Only I can make a decision and nobody else... As usual...

Dunno, what the hell is going on with me!((((((( I have fallen in love with a guy, who is not from my social socity. The reality is that nothing special may be between us, nothing. He doesn't even know about my existence. Aber alle Leute weiBen ihnen... Er ist die besste Junge, ich weiB. Dreams only safe me. Thanks God we have DREAMS! They are so wonderful, you may make all your wishes come true! Naturlich ich weiB dass er ist nicht fur mich... The only thing that is left for me is to fall out of love, but it is the hardest thing to be done...

Сегодня я прошла сквозь всю палитру чувств: начиная с радости, когда получила первый автомат по физкультуре. Продолжая тем, что у меня автомат по социологии. И заканчивая 2 по экономической теории. Настроение менялось с такой скоростью света, что трудно себе представить. Просто ужас какой-то!
Надеюсь получиться как-нибудь поправить положение и хорошо сдать зачет...

Today I found out that I and my friend like the same guy... Dunno what the fuck to do now. On the one hand, I don't wanna loosing our friendship, but on the other hand I like this guy a lot...
I'm thinking about this situation every minute, but still can't make decision.
If only I could talk to someone honestly. Although I have such a person to talk to, she has the same dilemma in what to do with this shitty life and this shitty situation... May be with time this problem will leave me, may be not. Life always plays tricks with me. what for, dunno...

мои секреты, мои самые иртересные истории и сокровенные мечты