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ahhh wtf its 3am & ever sinse I woke up, exaclty an hour ago & I can't fall asleep...maybe it's the medication, I don't even know anymore.
I went to my doctor today- he said I can go to school tommorrow, he also told me not to od on the drugs lol...I'm trying not to.
...still I don't understand, I wake up in the middle of the night, my head hurts like crazy, no one interesting is on to talk to... so I'm just sitting here drinking cups of tea one after the other :/
...still don't know if I'm gonna go through w. my plan. on Sat.
b.c. the fact that I'm 5o% proud & 50% stubborn just makes me think nahh, but then again...thanks to Toliy who got me all confused, 1st he's like you do it- ''I'll take out my bat, don't temp me...okay allright tempt me & see what happens pal...'' (LMAO!)
& s0 the next day which was yesterday he's like ''do it!'', I'm like if I do it I'll feel like shit, he's like ''you'll feel like crap if you don't''...allright he made his point.
besides all that going on... I gotta start my research paper some time this weekend, even though its due after XMas break, we all know I luv to procrastinate.
& lately I've been running into ppl I know online...tell me how this kid who Asya used to like from JCH knows my bf? mdaa hate the stupid russian circle!...I think he thinks I must be crazy though, I rem. I made up a random nick name for him- ''sky'' so everytime I'd go yelling around omg SKY! omg the sky IS BLUE! Asyas like I'll kill you. lol
ugh 1 thing I actually AM kinda happy bout is my mom, we talked & it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be...
like I don't understand Anna's like ignore it, I can't ingore someone I live in the same house w. esp. if it's my mom...kinda hard to do, besides it's much more easier to just make up w. her.



what I'm NOT happy bout it the fact that no matter how much I excerise I'm not lo0sing much weight, & I don't even eat that much, seriously it's so weird.
I've been bellydancing to like gypsy music & stuff lmao, which reminds me of ...
NO. lol
reminds me of- the times me & Alya to0k belly dance...haha we came in we didn't know SHiT...& then she's like I think we're getting better...but no0o0 I HAD 2 quit that to0.
ahh somehow when I write all my shit here I feel a lil better...
its so cold in my ro0m