i don't get it

some people are just unbelievable to understand
i was so shocked and embarassed yesterday in my speech class.......
this guy just shocked me , first he asked me if i spilled the water and as usually without realizing what he was saying i said yes just to get rid of him and when the teacher came in the pointed and asked who did it, he pointed right at me...oh my God , i am back at kindergarden, what the hell is that/. now i can't trust him ,

and i won't , not anymore , no more sharing with him , and today in my other class he playfully said "i love her" talking to other girl and looking at me, uh, uh what the hell how do i understand that........unbelievable i have no clue.......but his friend albanian guy is so cute , i can't help it not to try not to stare at him, thats why i sit in front of him, so i won't get embarrased or accused of staring....yesterday he gave me two pencils. ...haha i am back to the kindergardern, i can't believe i get exciting because someone gave me two pencils......i am retarded and i am 20 and its spring, so i guess it explanins it all......
anyway my guy from phy is still flirting with me, but i don't want him ,,,not him not the other one from speech class, i am good and i am looking for someone better, now he is trying to be all smart, ha! i am still smarter
damn, i am looking for nice today and i have just a long hair i can't believe it i didn't cut it, oh yeah a few day before i had this damn obsession to cut my hair and wen t i finaly went with my mother to cut it, all salons were closed except one, that was supper expensive and i thought i didn't worth it, so i guess it was a sign from above that i should not cut my hair and i didn't .....

yeah yeah.....
anyway i have to go to my acc class i can't wait untill summer and yesterday i so wanted to see the concelor but because of this damn speech class and that damn borring proffessor i was late and he didn't see me, i am mad a little bit.......
eh , its getting warmer and warmer outsite......
love me