.........i wish my self, and all of you a Merry Chistmass .......
......may all your wishes come true........
....and mine .....

генеральная уборка завершина...
теперь можно встречать праздники.....
на все про все ушло около 3 часов

feelings

today i decorated my tree...
now it feels like holidays......

p.s. my finals are over, so now i can do what ever i want for 30 days.....
yep , oh yeah

The 48 Laws of Power

http://www.i-am-bored.com/bored_link.cfm?link_id=7177

I passed the CPE exam..................
now i got my associate degree......yep yep
and my doctor will take off my braces on January 4th......
how cool is that....................
the year is ending up on a happy note.....for sure..............lucky me.....
in a new year 2005 , i will look even more beautifull with no braces and beautiful holiwood smile.........yep yep, my spring semester looks very promising, especially i am going to do a lot of pressentations with my NEW SMILE , happy happy :D :D :D :D :D ok, back to my last geog essay......3 more days ......ah

She Blocked Me
(Parody of "She Hates Me" by Puddle of Mudd)

Met a girl over the net
Saved our chats on a floppy diskette
It went well for a week or two
Then it all came unglued
One night she said "brb"
Waited up for an hour or three
Then I started to realize
She wasn't coming back online

She frickin' blocked me
Trust
She frickin' blocked me
La la la la
We talked all night
Then she put my screen name on her block list
Then she clicked ok

She told me she was taking a shower
And she'd be back in a half hour
But she pulled one over on me
WTF, OMFG
I was ticked, but not convinced
Had to be sure before my ego was minced
Good thing I'm such a whiz
Signed on with my other name and yup, there she is

She frickin' blocked me
Trust
She frickin' blocked me
La la la la
We talked all night
Then she put my screen name on her block list
Then she clicked ok

That's my story, as you see
Never trust a woman when she says "brb"
Now it's over, and I'm torn
But I signed her up for beastiality porn

She frickin' blocked me
Trust
She frickin' blocked me
La la la la
We talked all night
Then she put my screen name on her block list
Then she clicked ok

(La la la la la la la la la la)
Trust
(La la la la la la la la la la)
Trust
(La la la la la la la la la la)
Then she put my screen name on her block list
(La la la la la la la la la la)
She frickin' blocked me

one more week of studying and i will be free..............
yeah

to chear myself up........

Идет сессия. Студент приходит в общежитие со счастливым выражением лица.
- Ну как, Вася, сдал ?!
- Сдал. Даже с отбитым горлышком приняли !

Прораб говорит студентам - практикантам:
- Сейчас на стройку комиссия приедет - что б тут не случилось - делайте вид,
что так и надо !..
Идет комиссия по стройке и тут с грохотом обваливается стена дома.
Один студент смотрит на часы:
- 10.35 ! Ты смотри - точно по графику !

Пенсионер и студент стоят на остановке. Пенсионер:
- А-а-пчххи !!!
Студент:
- Будьте здоровы !
- Спасибо.
- Пожалуйста.
- Не стоит.
- Ну, что вы..
- Не умничай !
- Пошел на хуй !

На экзамене профессор спрашивает студента:
- Скажите, почему я Вас не видел ни на одной лекции ?
- Да я все время за колонной сидел.
- Никогда бы не подумал, что за одной колонной могут сидеть столько человек !

- Как называется прибор для измерения тока ?
Студент - глядь в шпаргалку.
- Амперметр. :)
- Правильно. А как называется прибор для измерения напряжения ?
Студент в шпаргалку, а преподаватель его по руке хлоп.
- ЭЭЭ...Hу.....Это....Hапряжометр !
Препод - в шпаргалку, а студент - его по руке.
- Хм. Правильно !

На экзамене в мединституте студент отвечает на вопрос:
"Признаки беременности". Ему подсказывают:
- Волосы выпадают, ноги кривые, большой живот...
Он все это повторяет. Профессор просит его остаться после
экзамена. Студент заходит к нему и видит голого профессора.
Тот спрашивает:
- Ноги у меня кривые?
- Кривые.
- Волосы выпали?
- Выпали.
- Живот большой?
- Большой!
- Вот когда рожу, считай, что сдал экзамен!

last day of classes for this semester.......
i feel a little bit happy and a little bit sad......
but now i feel angry , thanks for that damn professor that i just had the last class with............ i hate him...he is such a show off....instead of giving us a review , he started talking about all those great things that he can do and how talented he is........now i feel sad.....FOR MYSELF........ i feel like i am worhtless and useless compaired to him.......why don't i have a talent or a special interest toward something.........at least something..........what have i achieved in my life?
NOTHING.......NADA......NONE............it kills me inside.......... there is nothing that i am good at.....nothing...............aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa punish me, i deserve it i am almost 20 and there is nothing that i can do in this life.......why? why am i like that? i am just a stupid shy girl.........with no talent........things must be changed...but how and to what?
there must be something that i am good at but i don't know what that might be........
i have to be openmind, i got to do something besides school...........and i must be a good student at the same time............ok ok, i am taking a dance classes now, but its only classes thats it, after 8th lesson it is over..............my dance career will be over........maybe i should take it again so i feel definately learn how to dance salsa by repeating it many times..........or maybe i should take piano lessons and learn notes , buy myself a sintezator and try to create some music on my own......i love techno and trance........ah what am i talking about, who am i kidding........sports are deffinately not good for me, what is left? not much............i need a hobby or at least a special interest toward something, and i don't have it and its is driving me nuts........i try to stay possitive toward myself but it is so hard........and this pretty girl in my class who is married.........da , you damn professor why did you have to say that,...it was like a knife into my heart...........not only i don't have a hobby, but on yes , you also don't have a husband, oh no not even a boyfriend, Not even a BOY FRIEND, ...........what a loser i am...........this makes me feel like crap..........damn , last day of class , it is suppost to be fun, but no it is not........i wanna go home and decorate my little chistmass tree.....but not i can't cause i go to study for those stupid finales and wait till they are over , only than i can decorate my tree...........................i think i am leading toward depression..............i got to get out of that............you can't achieve things with a dark head and blind of anger mind.......i will stop writting so the sakes of my own..................
no love......

why not?

today i tried to undestand ebay.........
its hard, and theirs fees are driving me crazy.............
but i still want to start my little business on ebay, with my father........
will see...........
he thinks its a good idea, but i am not sure...........
eh, business girl................

ira called yesterday and i really enjoed talking to her .........
it was fun...............
and her little crush , i wan't jelouse, i actually was happy for her.....
hm thats a new feeling ................
ah, i want her to be happy.....................

can't start studing for my finalls.............
stupid me................
its time to learn................

don't know why but i feel happy........
yesterday got my last check from my work......some money.............
college is almost over........
and my planes for the holidays are:to read a new book and dowload new music......
i am really excited about it, silly, don't know why...................
i am so cheared..............
and i got a new crush! Japan!
i have to visit that country , maybe i shell take classes in japanise......
it must be fun.............
maybe i will, i used to want to learn german, but now i am so inlove with japan.....
the whole culture makes me exciting.............
got to visit that country , some day......
i hope......i will................really, really.........
love................

ah, this is the last weak of classes.......
i am so happy, and holidays are coming soon so its even better
i am so ready for them... .....my parents are coming back today and i feel delightfull! Really i do, i am so happy, i had a bad night without a sleep two days in a row just because they weren't home.......i so got used to that , that now i can''t imagine how am i going to live on my own when i graduade?
hm, can i?
ah, its was not what i imagine, ........i want my mom and dad back..........sick on being on my own.......and its scary to be on your own.......
good news! i talked to my friend yesterday on a phone and she told me that she had to write and essay for one of her classes about someone who influenced you in live.....well,...........she wrote about me...ME ........ME .......M E
wow, really, i influenced you.........i am so glad! yep yep, finally something thinks that i got something in my head! She even said that i helped her a lot when she was down and didn't want to study anymore, i convinst her not to give up.........ah, too bad i don't remember that moment. , but i well, maybe i did.....I AM A HERO.....ME! so happy......so cool ...... wow i am a role model (ok, ok, i came up with that term on my own, i don't know for sure if i am) for someone.......Still cool
so i am sitting my a computer room right now, my classes are over, i only have one more class, dance class and i have this all extra time...........and i am hungry, but my parents coming back today (once again this is a great news! hehe , i never imagine that i would say that in my life, i always wanted to live on my own, but now i am not so sure about that) so, back to the point, they are coming back and that means FOOD , Good food! yes! home made food!!!!!!!!!! i am scary................
and hungry, and dancing on an empty stomach isn't fun, so i guess i have to go to eat right now.........maybe subway sandwitch.......eh...off i go!

i want slow

p.s. stupid me....
just recognized the mistake of my own...
not "slow" by SNOW......
or maybe i want slow, what the question is what is that that i want slow?
hm, made me think...........

The more i spend the days and nights by myself, the more i understand how it is not cool to live by yourself!
its borring, and you have to do so much stuff on your own that i haven't done before...........
eh......
i don't know how am i going to live on my own after i graduate the college.....
i got to find someone to live with........

p.s. my cat loves me......i got his love back......

p.s.s i look wonderful today, everyone seems to look at me, maybe i am cute..
i made definately the right decision not to cut my hair.....go me beauty!:beauty:

feelings

so wants new? not much........
as usual lots of work to do, cause its the end of semester.....
i am helping my father with his little business and because of that i feel kind of important, now he calles me and asks my opinion, what to do.......
well not really opinion, but rather a statement and and order to do that for him...
hehe, but i still feel important....... So its cool, really,,,,,
i decided not to cut my hair.........
lol, i am out, my friend Qina, just called me and we are going to the lunch....yes!!!

just not a very good day, i feel like crap....
my both sisters in law are getting married, one is older and another one is younger than me, and i am still single...........
i don't even have a boyfriend, whats wrong with me?
why can't i find someone and get married? why don't guys like me?
now i feel the pressure from then, now i know that they will talk about me as of old maide.....i guess they are happy now,,,,,,,,i hate my relatives/..............
lets them be happy and get married......i will be on my on.....face it, i don't have someone to marry..................
maybe one day, i will laugh back at them...............
i am so lonely.........
oh well, learn how to deal with it........................

"(In funny old lady voice) Hello, you have reached the ----family and we can not come to the phone right now. Please leave your name, phone number, short message, social security number, and credit card number and we will call you when we're done shopping."

Hi. This is John:
If you are the phone company, I already sent the money.
If you are my parents, please send money.
If you are my financial aid institution, you didn't lend me enough money.
If you are my friends, you owe me money.
If you are a female, don't worry, I have plenty of money.

Hi. I'm home right now, I'm just screening my calls. So start talking and if you're someone I want to speak with I'll pick up the phone. Otherwise, well, what can I say?

This is you-know who. We are you-know-where. Leave your you-know-what and we'll get back you-know-when.

(From Japanese friend): He-lo! This is Sa-to, If you leave message, I call you soon. If you leave "sexy" message I call sooner!

Thank you for calling Soviet Embassy. No KG... Er, no diplomats are able to answer phone, so at sound of capitalist tone, leave name, telephone number, and short description of secrets you wish to sell .

I can't come to the phone now, so if, well, actually, I CAN come to the
phone now, I mean, like, I'm at the phone NOW, recording this message,
but I'm doing this NOW, while you're listening to it LATER, except for
you I guess it's NOW, like, when you're listening to it... I mean,
like, wait, gosh. This is so confusing.