Today is the first day of spring, but it is so cold and I am in really bad mood I don't know why.. but to look things in the face, sometimes I feel that I don't satisfied with my life. If smb look on my life - he/she will wonder - all is ideal, i have good friends, good job, i am in relationships with excellent boy and now we are going to live together. And i don't understand what the matter of my depression is.

Maybe the reason is he, he is excellent really, and all my girls are sure that it will be very silly if I break our relationships. He will be excellent husband and ideal father. I suppose I love him, but in quiet way.. 

I feel lack of emotions. Boring…

To be honest, sometimes i realixa that I miss the time we spent at nightclubs and bars.. It was time of freedom, time of revelry.. Time of luxurious cars, parties and spirits.. time of bright make up and high heels.

Maybe I am not ready to start so serious and adult life. I am 22, I will be 23 in some months and I feel that it is too early for me.. to grown up, to marry, to have children..My friends and peers marry and give birth to beautiful kids.

But I want freedom, revelry and crazy love.

Epic fail.

UPD. 

Getting warmer.. and it seems that my mood improves.
Everything will be fine. I know.

 

I've decided to tell you about  my present work.. and smth about my future career plans..

So,

Now I am working for small russian company.  I am foreign economic activity manager.. It is smth as sales manager but our company sells the goods abroad, so my clients are citizens of different countries such as Taiwan, India, Japan, Malaysia, Iran and many others.

My professional activity consists in negotiations, exchange of mails etc for making contracts and documentation for custom. Also I was in charge of the organization of transportation of our goods (negotiations and contracts with different forwarders, all transport documents etc) but now I have an assistant who is engaged in this work.

My present salary is tiny really. I suppose that I have perfect education so I could get better job. Why I am still here? Because of experience. Without experience - it is almost impossible to have work of my dreams..

You could ask me - what is the work?

Hmmm.. It should be big corporation probably foreign corporation. And its activity should be connected  with sales. I really want to get into such corporate business atmosphere, dress code, coffee breaks etc =)) 

I would like to work for automobile company. I do not why really, but is so attractive to me.. mmm =))

One of my friends thinks that we should always visualize our wishes and dreams (referred to "Transurfing of reality" by Zeland)

So,

My future career and my husband's career are presented below =)))))))))))

And what about you? Your present work and work of your dreams?

So,

maybe someone is acquainted with me and someone probably no

That's why I'll try to introduce myself briefly.

My name is Julia, I'm 22.

This year I have graduated from the University, and now i am working for a small company.. My job is closely connected with english language, but my english is not so good.. So I try to improve it by hook or by crook and keeping a diary is the good way, I think.

If my notes are interesting for you I will be glad to see your comments in my diary, but please write them in English.

Also I'll be glad if you correct my mistakes and so on =)))

I'll be glad to see you in my diary! WELCOME!