Now it's clear...
A lot of people here have this problem. My virtual friend from these diaries has tried to commit the suicide and one of her favorite things is painting... With her own blood.

I don't really get it though sometimes I also feel that strange desire to take a knife and let my pain all out... Still I find alternative and useful ways, like writing songs.

By the way, do you know Russian? I guess yes because if you didn't you wouldn't know where to click to do all the actions here.