В колонках играет - The Veils

Настроение сейчас - darkness

wow, it has been a long time..

it is winter here as always. And really no trace of light.

i've had a massive journey around Europe: a lot of cities for 2.5 weeks not without incidents of course. But it was still interesting. I haven't got enough positive emotions though. It seems that I'm becoming numb as time goes. 

and I think I'm done with travelling alone. It became kind of too sad. Does it mean that I'm done with travelling at all? Time will show.

at work it is mmm.. jitters. With a lot of work and not enough people. Maybe I'll just never have the dream job. Does it even exist?

waiting for the spring in this cold inpenetrable darkness is exhausting and I really don't have anything that would have been able to cheer me up. So dark depressive mood again with frequent attacks of hatred to everything that surround me.

what is loneliness by the way? Is it a useless existence or the most fulfilled way of living when you can analyse and understand yourself? Or gradual way of self-destruction?