Some people just don't see when you need them to.  It hurts when you ask them to do smth that is really important to you and they don't. Even if it costs them practically nothing.

Someone smart said smth like "Those who deserve your tears will never make you cry".

Reasons for not doing? Purely selfish. So what? Do i have to admit that all people are selfish and self-centered? That each person can let you down? I don't want to live in this world. This thought comes and comes. More and more often. I'm so tired of disappointments in people. I need people so much. I need them around me. And simultaneously I can't stand them anymore. I just want to die or to live in some beacon and not see anyone at all.

I'm so tired of always being alone. Even in a room full of people. Especially in a room full of people. Really it's kind of easier for me to be alone when I'm really alone. When I don't think of people who should be here with me but they just don't care. It is selfish but I'm tired of seeing normal people with normal lives. Part of me is happy for them but another part raises sad memories each time i see them. And i can't stand that too. I'm just so damn tired(  Everything is just like in fog. I am not able to see clearly anymore. I'm afraid i'm at the beginning of the road that leads to nowhere. And I'm moving fast, too fast.

fill your life with something else

fill your life with something else

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fill your life with something else

fill your life with something else

fill your life with something else

fill your life with something else

fill your life with something else