annie is being all miserable and ill today.... scags made me cry by taking care of me- i'm still way to used to my good wifey ways-pain? shut up and get back in the kitchen. no wonder being forced to take painkillers and having everything brought o me made me cry...... im such a big baby

thoroughly fed up with work, for two reasons. firstly, im CONVINCED noone likes me, and talk behind my back. not sure why, but i just cant help it. secondly, i get absolutely NO job satisfaction. not that it isnt a good job, but i just CANNOT possibly do THAT for a YEAR really REALLY cant...... i want to be back at the hospital, being a partner rather than a SERVANT, helping people get somewhere, making a real difference, having a say, having knowledge and being able to pass it on. i never realised how many different things in nursing are amazing, and how much id miss them. here you go, the hardest, most frustrating and, in a way, pointless job in the UNIVERSE, and i cant live without it. *insert a long rant with waving of hands around and tears here* im so sad.

on the different note, went out to no-wave last night- was a bit of a last minute decision, but went surprisingly well, despite the fact that i felt ignored and hated for a while, and mike was worrying me like hell. i did manage to have some fun though. i now remember why i dont like being around too many people- i go maaaaaaaaaaaaaaad