I came back home!!!I went to Tenerife,where i worked as a waiter.. the job was so hard so i did not have any free time to write there..I tried to communicate with my gf...but she's disappeared. she found someone else while i was in canary islands.emptyness...i m sitting aroud.. not able to do anything ...m so stessed out of the life which drives me crazy..i we split upcan not believe..because it did not work out.she was so rare and rough,she is such a selfish dishonest person who pretended to be a nice girl.everything is over
annie came back home.we were together all evening..
why did i feel so bored with her..
we wathced the movie and could not find any themes to talk about..
may be she was tired.
it was such a difficult time..i have not had even a single min to write here because Annie was in hospital.i visited her everyday.she had the problem with her arm.i missed her terribly and forgot about Sally unless she called me and asked me why i disappeared i hung up the phone..it was so stupid from my side. i go nuts ..if annie knows about her she will leave me..it was only for spending nights nomore. it's over now . when annie went to hospital i have realized whom i really needed..
who i am? a dishonest bastard .or just a man?i m seeing with girl when i have serious relationships with my gf.we've spent 3 nights together. She's so attractive i do not feel sorry for it. I only play with her and love my gf. i mean we enjoyed being together as lovers nomore...But i can not get rid of thoughts about her?why??
Понедельник, 26 Февраля 2007 г. 14:23
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i woke up with goddam headache,,
day seems to be nice,
sky is blue and high..
sun is bright and warm,
i want to go out but i am not in the mood to do anything
Понедельник, 26 Февраля 2007 г. 00:08
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god...today she has called me and hung up the phone, i did not call her back and awaited when she would phone me up.she gave a ring..we began to talk she told that she was bad,for her easier to say this stuff when speak face to face and solve the problem.i have realized that madly in love with her.her greeny eyes and red hair just drive me crazy and make my heart bits faster and faster.i am weak and can not get rid it of her.I do not wanna it.
Воскресенье, 25 Февраля 2007 г. 01:42
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i feel so down..i supposed to spend this day in another way,i wanted to eat out with my girl friend.I've chosen cool place.Well... we decided to meet at 12 am,i'd been waiting for her for 30 mins then called her and wondered where she was.She did not say anything clear,and asked that she would probably come in hour.You know i was boiling of rage cuz she did not let me know that she would be late,so if i did not call her up i would stay in one place and wait for her as a total moron,that killed me..She did not care of my time and it was the reason why i sent her the message where told all my feelings and that we would meet the next time.She did not answer anything.I m so worried if i was wrong but i do not feel so to be frank.
everythig is fine..i M GOING ON HOLIDAY!I m glad that i will spend some days far away from my parents i am tired of family's problems so it's wicked that i hide.my sister is seeing with a stupid guy To be frank i don't like such an idea she told me that it was not my business and he would love her forever/i find him weird and i am aware of his incompatibility with her..she is in love with him as a fool but they are still friends who can be someone more very soon..i want she to break up with him.what do i have to do/?she yells at me and asks to leave her alone ...i only bother.
i watched football match yesterday.itlalian players are dudes..they had dishonest actions.Their main purpose was to drive Zidane crazy..They did it perfectly we saw how his nerves broke down.There is nothing like a good shit.FUCKIN SLUGS!!!!!I DO HATE themI wish they broke their legs..
I am under the weather...i do have a lot of rows with my sister and mom.I hate when they are shouting at me..they absolutely can not stand each other. I am very tired of such a situatoin.i HAVE TRIED TO HELP THEM..But in the end i was the worst person in our family.To be brutally frank my mommy and sister have the same сharacters.they only can not see or even have not yet realized that is so.Day by day i have more thoughts to live without my family.
my girl is a princess..she has an attractive smile and her eyes is a miracle. She is bloody shy and i duno what i gotta to do.. i don't wanna change her She is afaid of my kisses and hugs.She she shivers as the leaf on wind. She is so pure..MY BABY GIRL, I LUV YA!!! but as a man i want more than kisses but how can i say it to her she is such a shy gal?????????
I've been waiting for the phone call from my gf..she's just sent me the message that she had been with her best mate Judy
So she has forgotten about me and spent her free time with bitchy Judy instead
How i hate her...what do i have to think? i'm boiling of rage and wanna kill my gf