I don’t know why I have decided to write this post in English. Probably, I do not want to speak about my feelings

I'm badly. My heart is breaking… Why has it happened now? I have live quietly since he finished school. Why have I dropped in the site? Why have I look grazed his profile? I live without him two years WHY???? I’m FUCHIN’ FOOL! I can’t understand that I feel!I'm badly or I'm happy? This sense kill me! I unwell fall asleep every day. I think about him. I even couldn’t think that he is such good boy. I am shaking. Yes, I remember, when we have quarreled with him. Bun I hope, that he still has forgotten. I have put the diagnosis of my love. We never shall be together. Because of it I suffer.