I fell so sick, it is very difficult to do something or evem think about something!!!!

i'm not in Russia that's why i'm writting in english!!!!
i'm in France with Jean, i don't want to go there but he said that he want me to be with him, it's crazy, he doesn't know that i don't want, today i decided to say him that, and i hope i will break up with him forever, he is a very good friend but nothing more........
sorry Jean I love you but not like you love me, i'm not for you,
you have to find someone better than me.....
SORRY..............