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Настроение сейчас - Strange... sad but happy

friday... evening... went 2 meet ma ex-... ma 1st love... he hasnt changed at all... went 2 the (some kinda) restaurant)))... were talkin, drank some alcohol...den he asked me if id like 2 come 2 his place... and i said yes... dere was nothin, nothin really happened but i understand now dat he just doesnt care of anything connected wid me...friends? i dont believe dat we can B friends... not bcuz i love him(n actually i do not)... just bcuz he doesnt want me 2 B his friend... i guess he doesnt... n im almost sure... i understood dat i need him SO... but we r TOO different... free love? maybe... i wanna oversleep wid him... sometime...(shame on me)))))
i really want him 2 B my friend... Bcuz he is "da only person who somehow is same as me"... sometimes its hard 2 understand him... (Bcuz he never tells u wat does he really think n feel...) n dis is wat i need... bcuz i think i can understand ppl too well... im like tired of it... so... dis is da end of my love story wid him... no more dreams, no more "pink glasses"... but i still hope dat he really can B a good friend 4 me... but at the same time i think dat he will never call again... i am so afraid 2 lose him... on slishkom dorog mne... kak drug, kak pervaya lubov i kak prosto 4elovek...

mne bilo ploxo... no eto yje voshlo v pruvichky... pardon vse, kogo zagruzila...((((
P.S. I vse-taki jizn prekrasna...