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Создан: 02.04.2007
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I'm Deranged

Среда, 25 Апреля 2007 г. 21:54 + в цитатник
A man lies in his bed in a room with no door. He waits hoping for a presence, something, anything to enter. After spending half his life searching, he still felt as blank as the ceiling at which he's staring. He's alive, but feels absolutely nothing. So, is he?
When he was six he believed that the moon overhead followed him. By nine he had deciphered the illusion, trading magic for fact. No tradebacks...
So this is what it's like to be an adult. If he only knew now what he knew then.
I'm open
Come in
Come in
I'm open
Lying sideways atop crumpled sheets and no covers, he decides to dream. Dream up a new self for himself.

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Понедельник, 23 Апреля 2007 г. 03:44 + в цитатник
It started when we were little kids, free spirits but already tormented by our own hands. Given to us by our parents we got together and wrote on desks and slept in laundry rooms near snowy mountains and slipped through whatever cracks we can find minds altered. We didn't falter in portraying hysterical and tragic characters in a smog filled Universe. We loved the dirty city and the journeys away from it. We had not yet been or seen our friends selves. Chase tails round and round in downward spiral leaving trail of irretrievable vital life juice behind. Still the brothersbloodcomradespartnerfamilycuzz was impenetrable. And we lived inside it laughing with no clothes. And everything experimental 'till death was upon us in our face mortality. And lots of things seemed futile then. But love and music can save us and did; while the giant grey monster grew more poisoned and volatile around us. Jaws clamping down and spewing ugly shit around. Nothing is the same, so we keep moving.
I remember 10 years ago in Hollywood we did some good and we did some real bad stuff. But the Butthole Surfers always said it's better to regret something you did, than something you didn't do. We were young and we were looking for the deep kick... Seen them come, seen them go.

Nameless

Воскресенье, 22 Апреля 2007 г. 23:25 + в цитатник
Pathetic (benign)
Accept it (undermine)
Your opinion (my justification)
Happy (safe)
Servent (caged)
Malice (Utter weakness)
No toleration
Invade (committed)
Enraged (admit it)
Don't condescend (don't even disagree)
Desire (decay)
Dissapoint (delay)
You've suffered then, now suffer unto me.
Anyone (no) Anything (yes) Anyway (fall)
Anybody (mine) Anybody (tell me)
I want (you) I need (you) I'll have (you)
I won't let anybody have you
Obey (me) Believe (me) Just trust (me) Worship (me) Live for (me)
Be grateful (now) Be honest (now) Be precious (now) Be mine (just love me)

(Don't go) I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you
(I know) the only thing I ever really loved, was...

Rosetta Stoned

Суббота, 21 Апреля 2007 г. 16:09 + в цитатник
Alright then, picture this if you will:
10 to 2 AM, X, and a box of Krispy Kremes, in my "need to know" pose, just outside of Area 51.
Contemplating the whole "chosen people" thingy when a flaming stealth banana split the sky like one would hope but never really expect to see in a place like this.
Cutting right angle donuts on a dime and stopping right at my Birkenstocks, and me yelping...
Holy fucking shit!

Then the X-Files being, looking like some kind of blue-green Jackie Chan with Isabella Rossellini lips and breath that reeked of vanilla Chig Champa,
did a slow-mo Matrix descent out of the butt end of the banana vessel and hovered above my bug-eyes, my gaping jaw, and my sweaty L. Ron Hubbard upper lip and all I could think was: "I hope Uncle Martin here doesn't notice that I pissed my fuckin' pants."

So light in his way, like an apparition, he had me crying out, "Fuck me, it's gotta be, Deadhead Chemistry, the blotter got right on top of me, got me seein' E-motherfuckin'-T!"

And after calming me down with some orange slices and some fetal spooning, E.T. revealed to me his singular purpose.
He said, "You are the Chosen One, the One who will deliver the message. A message of hope for those who choose to hear it and a warning for those who do not."
Me. The Chosen One?
They chose me!!!
And I didn't even graduate from fuckin' high school.

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Суббота, 21 Апреля 2007 г. 02:12 + в цитатник
Is this just another day, this god forgotten place
First comes love and then comes pain, let the games begin
Questions rise and answers fall, insurmountable

Cause to the universe, i don't mean a thing
And there is just one word and i still believe
And it's love...
Love boat captain, take the reigns, steer us towards the clear
I know it's already been sung, it can't be said enough
Love is all you need... all you need is love

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Пятница, 20 Апреля 2007 г. 19:38 + в цитатник
Finally I'm done.
Don't want anything at all.

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Четверг, 19 Апреля 2007 г. 23:03 + в цитатник
Не трать время на человека, который не стремится провести его с тобой.

Габриэль Гарсиа Маркес

John Keats - On leaving some Friends at an early Hour

Четверг, 19 Апреля 2007 г. 01:26 + в цитатник
Give me a golden pen, and let me lean
On heap’d up flowers, in regions clear, and far;
Bring me a tablet whiter than a star,
Or hand of hymning angel, when ’tis seen
The silver strings of heavenly harp atween:
And let there glide by many a pearly car,
Pink robes, and wavy hair, and diamond jar,
And half discovered wings, and glances keen.
The while let music wander round my ears,
And as it reaches each delicious ending,
Let me write down a line of glorious tone,
And full of many wonders of the spheres:
For what a height my spirit is contending!
’Tis not content so soon to be alone.

Long Road

Среда, 18 Апреля 2007 г. 15:52 + в цитатник
and i wished for so long, cannot stay
all the precious moments, cannot stay
it's not like wings have fallen, cannot stay
but still something's missing, i cannot say
holding hands are daughters and sons
and their faiths are falling down down
i have wished for so long
how i wish for you today
will i walk the long road
cannot stay the long road
there's no need to say goodbye
all the friends and family
all the memories going round round
i have wished for so long
how i wish for you today
and the wind keeps roarin'
and the sky keeps turning grey
and the sun is setting
the sun will rise another day
i have wished for so long
how i wish for you today
will i walk the long road
we all walk the long road

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Вторник, 17 Апреля 2007 г. 09:21 + в цитатник
I hope some day in the future you will understand that I've done the right thing. It is very simple.
I've sacrificed with your attitude towards me, for your happiness with the man you love.

P.S. The only wish of a loving man is to give happiness to the beloved one by all means.

Whipping

Понедельник, 16 Апреля 2007 г. 19:40 + в цитатник
Don't need a helmet, got a hard, hard head
Don't need a raincoat, i'm already wet
Don't need a bandage, there's too much blood
After a while, seems to roll right off

Don't need a hand, there's always arms attached
Don't get behind, i can't fall back
Why must we trust all these rusted rails?
They don't want no change we already have

Don't mean to push, but i'm being shoved
I'm just like you, think we've had enough
I can't believe a thing they want us to
We all got scars, they should have 'em too

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Воскресенье, 15 Апреля 2007 г. 14:53 + в цитатник
And he who forgets will be destined to remember.

William Butler Yeats

Суббота, 14 Апреля 2007 г. 02:02 + в цитатник
All things uncomely and broken, all things worn out and old,
The cry of a child by the roadway, the creak of a lumbering cart,
The heavy steps of the ploughman, splashing the wintry mould,
Are wronging your image that blossoms a rose in the deeps of my heart.

The wrong of unshapely things is a wrong too great to be told;
I hunger to build them anew and sit on a green knoll apart,
With the earth and the sky and the water, re-made, like a casket of gold
For my dreams of your image that blossoms a rose in the deeps of my heart.

Wystan Hugh Auden - The More Loving One

Пятница, 13 Апреля 2007 г. 02:14 + в цитатник
Looking up at the stars, I know quite well
That, for all they care, I can go to hell,
But on earth indifference is the least
We have to dread from man or beast.

How should we like it were stars to burn
With a passion for us we could not return?
If equal affection cannot be,
Let the more loving one be me.

Admirer as I think I am
Of stars that do not give a damn,
I cannot, now I see them, say
I missed one terribly all day.

Were all stars to disappear or die,
I should learn to look at an empty sky
And feel its total dark sublime,
Though this might take me a little time.

Chris Cornell - Like Suicide

Четверг, 12 Апреля 2007 г. 15:23 + в цитатник
Bit down on the bullet now
I had a taste so sour
I had to think of something sweet
Love's like suicide
Safe outside my gilded cage
With an ounce of pain
I wield a ton of rage
Just like suicide

With eyes of blood
And bitter blue
How I feel for you
I feel for you

Dylan Marlais Thomas - Especially when the October wind...

Вторник, 10 Апреля 2007 г. 19:24 + в цитатник
Especially when the October wind
With frosty fingers punishes my hair,
Caught by the crabbing sun I walk on fire
And cast a shadow crab upon the land,
By the sea's side, hearing the noise of birds,
Hearing the raven cough in winter sticks,
My busy heart who shudders as she talks
Sheds the syllabic blood and drains her words.

Shut, too, in a tower of words, I mark
On the horizon walking like the trees
The wordy shapes of women, and the rows
Of the star-gestured children in the park.
Some let me make you of the vowelled beeches,
Some of the oaken voices, from the roots
Of many a thorny shire tell you notes,
Some let me make you of the water's speeches.

Behind a pot of ferns the wagging clock
Tells me the hour's word, the neural meaning
Flies on the shafted disk, declaims the morning
And tells the windy weather in the cock.
Some let me make you of the meadow's signs;
The signal grass that tells me all I know
Breaks with the wormy winter through the eye.
Some let me tell you of the raven's sins.

Especially when the October wind
(Some let me make you of autumnal spells,
The spider-tongued, and the loud hill of Wales)
With fists of turnips punishes the land,
Some let me make you of the heartless words.
The heart is drained that, spelling in the scurry
Of chemic blood, warned of the coming fury.
By the sea's side hear the dark-vowelled birds.

Eddie Vedder

Вторник, 10 Апреля 2007 г. 17:23 + в цитатник
Sometimes

large fingers pushing paint
you're god and you've got big hands
the colors blend... the challenges you give man
seek my part... devote myself
my small self... like a book amongst the many on a shelf
sometimes i know, sometimes i rise
sometimes i fall, sometimes i don't
sometimes i cringe, sometimes i live
sometimes i walk, sometimes i kneel
sometimes i speak of nothing at all
sometimes i reach to myself, dear god

Black

Вторник, 10 Апреля 2007 г. 16:04 + в цитатник
sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of clay
were laid spread out before me as her body once did
all five horizons revolved around her soul
as the earth to the sun
now the air i tasted and breathed has taken a turn
and all i taught her was everything
i know she gave me all that she wore
and now my bitter hands shake beneath the clouds
of what was everything?
all the pictures had all been washed in black, tattooed everything...
i take a walk outside, i'm surrounded by some kids at play
i can feel their laughter, so why do i sear
and twisted thoughts that spin round my head
i'm spinning, oh, i'm spinning
how quick the sun can, drop away
and now my bitter hands cradle broken glass
of what was everything?
all the pictures had all been washed in black, tattooed everything...
all the love gone bad, turned my world to black
tattooed all i see, all that i am, all i'll ever be...
i know someday you'll have a beautiful life, i know you'll be a star
in somebody else's sky, but why
why, why can't it be, why can't it be mine?

William Blake

Вторник, 10 Апреля 2007 г. 15:44 + в цитатник
London

I wander thro' each charter'd street,
Near where the charter'd Thames does flow,
And mark in every face I meet
Marks of weakness, marks of woe.


In every cry of every Man,
In every Infant's cry of fear,
In every voice, in every ban,
The mind-forg'd manacles I hear.


How the Chimney-sweeper's cry
Every black'ning Church appalls;
And the hapless Soldier's sigh
Runs in blood down Palace walls.


But most thro' midnight streets I hear
How the youthful Harlot's curse
Blasts the new born Infant's tear,
And blights with plagues the Marriage hearse.

beLIEve

Понедельник, 02 Апреля 2007 г. 10:08 + в цитатник
How much difference does it make?


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