Настроение сейчас - nervous

 

Life's plan is almost done. I got plenty of mativation now. But I'm bound to break all i'm in. I'm deeply in some not good things and I should break it all.

Practise is continuing. Basicly I've got a lot of connects there at the National University of International Security Problems.

And of course band... I will reach it. I will become someone who knows what exactly it is...

Настроение сейчас - Silent, serious

... And this is another day of cleaning. Everything was great... just up to evening, when everything good' gone. I'm about my parents. I've done some wrong with this final in this year cleaning. It made my mom and dad mad... too mad that they couldn't look at me ordinary. And I went to my relatives - I had some affairs with them. Now I'm afraid what it's gonna be when I return home. Are they gonna look at me the same way? *sigh* Yeah, I know I'm notorious. I really feel shame on me. Damn! I thought everything is getting better concerning my parents. I should keep changing. If I wanna be Someone, I should do it always in my life, every day, 7 days a week, 24 hours a day and etc. Now I clearly know that I should break other my habits. It's my highly priority.
I thought about Olia again. I wonder if she wants to come back. I would be glad. I wanna give her some warm atmosphere, talk with her about a lot of things, to go somewhere with her to have fun, finally take back everything I used to be with. I know I changed a lot in this half of the year. I will commit some in a few weeks for her, but I should think of what.
And now, returning home, may be I'll buy some tasty cookies for my family. I should if I want rebalancing.