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Suis La Lune - A letter - a void

i thought i could, i thought i could let you slip un-noticed. i thought we
could, i thought we could share something beautiful. was i just a role in your
twisted game? well, did i ever get you somewhere or did i ever help you?
truelove is fiction. now that i look back on it all it all seams so clear: i was
just a helping hand like all of the others. "help me through." you held my hand,
you held my hand like we were a couple. i thought i meant, i thought i meant
something more than a "psykologist". all the words flew back at me: "...and how
are you, how are you? you just keep asking questions." it makes me always
remember all...all of...all of those...those bloody letters. i will protect you,
from yourself.

Suis La Lune - Eris flies tonight

my head against this concrete wall, fight it is useless. my hand against these
abstract thoughts, surrender is treason. everyone alive just wanna get out, out
of it all. and they all, they make me forget how to breath. we're not simply
even close to everything that you have practised. my head against this concrete
wall, fight it is useless. my hand against these abstract thoughts, surrender is
treason. they all make me forget how to breath. everyone just wanna get out!

Suis La Lune - Fingers. voice. heart. shake....

why? oh why do i make you cry the way you haven't cried since then when your
heart was trembeling? you just say that i don't see anything. i guess it would
hurt like knives to say that you are just too shy to tell me that you don't want
me around, atleast for awhile. only if you could see it was not them but me who
broke the last two pieses of your heart. a heart so fragile. a heart so caring,
so caring that you forgot to care for yourself instead.
(for over a year ago i did something really stupid, i guess. a close friend of
mine really took it in a bad way. the thing is that no-one acually told me what
i did wrong. i didn't really see it back then and all the time after what
happened i had to have bad cauntions and feel sorry and mean for something i
didn't really understand because no-one wanted to talk about it. i dont' think i
have really gotten over it yet, although my friends and also the person who got
reeeeally down by what i did seams to have forgotten or forgived me now. but i
haven't i don't think i ever will, 'cause how everbody treated me back then was
to me a big question. i had no-one to talk to so i kept feeling bad even though
i didn't acually understand why.)

Suis La Lune - My mind is a birdcage

i keep begging you to see. why won't you ever listen? you have got me into this,
you will show me the way out...out of this. as you say there's nowhere i can go.
as you say there's no-one i can trust. as you say we're all alone out there. as
you say we can never...never be clean. as a shadow, hiding my eyes from the sun,
you walk through the door of trust to never come again. but you will stay in my
memory like a bird in a cage. you will never be released from my mind. save me,
please. and it always comes down to this. wake me up, and open my eyes.
(this song is about lost friendship and what it does to you. it's an old song so
it's also about a friend i had for a long time ago that i really admired, but
nowadays we don't talk and we don't see each other. but i still remember his
words and his ways of putting things. i will never forget...)

Suis La Lune - Quiet, pull the strings

the way you always puts it makes me always sound like i don't care for you. we
faded. in a place we're all concrete vanished, in a place where you start asking
what's acuall the truth, that is where we belong. we're fading. always set to
never come true, it would never... oh, it's so easy to say "it's better this
way". but you can't see it, can you? and you take the first price. oh, it's so
easy to say that all is fine, but those memories still aces inside. it takes
time and yet more time to get over it. it will take time to forget, forget all.
it will take time so forget, forget us. it will take time so forget. i miss you
less so forget. but, your eyes will always shake me.

Suis La Lune - The Light matters always matters

silent steps. an aproaching fear and distance that grows bigger and bigger every
day. those words just stucks in my throat and makes it even harder to talk.
we've past the last point now for sure. i thought that you didn't see. you
thought that i just didn't care. i hope this wasn't meant to be and that we...we
could stay here for atleast an hour more. i don't want you to ignore me anymore.
why aren't those eyes reaching up before you? why is this rush just always a way
to hide? why is it that you always just seem so shy? you just...deceave me,
moving on. i thought that you...lied.

Suis La Lune - This heart easily tears

the only piece i still can grip with my hands are the pieces of the memorys of
your heart. not the same old songs anymore. wakeing eyes, i would die to see
that again. the only thing that still can fit in my heart are the pieces of the
memorys of your smile. not the same old songs anymore. your excuse, i could die
to hear that again. wakeing. the sheets in your bed, the smell of your hair,
it's all gone now for sure. why..you? all of those tapes has played out it's
role now. just a single breeze of your life.

Suis La Lune - Utter silence is fragile

signs, what's with those signs? would they explain it to you? silent words. and
the words describe what's gone through our heads. feels impossible to think that
memories of now will ever fade. i'm silently whatching your movements as you
walk through the room. i'm watching your eyes moving across the floor and all
the dust in my room. this silent is so painful, don't you think? you'd just say
i'm having "one of those days" again. but i know i'm not. can't beleave we even
sat on the same train, looking out different windows in silent. we've been
trying to ignore this for so long. i've really let this gone too far. one of
these days i simply will ask you. didn't know it was up to me all along. is it
really? is it so? all this time you could have told me, right? you just shut me
out with your silence. i thought you lied. dance, this silent dance of
lonlyness. stumble and fall. it's only bitetrness and tears. the daily flood of
the eyes. i remember when i thought i forgot about it all, and then how you
proved me wrong. this train is heading nowhere in a speed too high. eventhough
we're not at the same place we're still inside. we're still sharing the same
view = each others eyes.