I had a good christmas and new year. Twas fun!! So much for any kind of rivision or learning of any kind tho... oops! Thanks for the kick ass presents and cards etc recived over the christmas period!!! Mark got me a bloody UV light!!!! tis soo pretty!! now all i need is some good music and then i need never leave the house again!
--+ lights, sparkle sparkle ball, music it's all good+--

"Because I'm convinced
that there is nothing more."

But yeah now it's a new year and i've got a new scrap book so it's all good!!
uh huh thats rite
I went to the Venue on Sat which was fun! but only gareth (the ould) and victoria could come with *sob* but everyone was working and AAHHHHH!!!!!!!!! the fu*king christmas tree!! WTF!! that was way creepy!! (when photos are developed i'll post them but due to my current money crisis that wont be for a while... gurrr bloody phone bill) *mentle note get money in my phone* that is when i get money!!

Not happy to be back at school at all! although i do get to talk to vicky (the slut) and julie (of the wet head!!) everyday it's still shite!! REMEMBER NO EDITING!!! they're only in two of my classes and i'm not sure sitting beside you guys is a good idea (mainly due to the fact that i don't work and i stop you guys working... oops!!) but i'd rather talk *sob*
"And if rain brings winds of change
let it rain on us forever"
Tired so very tired!! should really go do maths!!
lol cornucopia photo galleries!!!
i'm gonna go cos i've got a full bottle of red grape in my room!! yummmm!!!
Cet, we must organise repeat of drunked weekends again!! Nicky come home!! Mark i'll call you later, good news!

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So yeah bio field trip... exciting... but yeah didn't want to go ...went wanted to come home...did come home...and thats about it!! NOOO!!! i don't want knocked up by mrs scovel!! and only set off 2 alarms! not bad going concidering we were only there for 2 and a half days!
friday comence return from the field trip! and aaron slept over. went into town on saturday and met up with julie, victoria, lauracet <3 (haven't seen in ages) and my wee john. we had coffee in 2 diff coffee shops and just sat around talking! ran into gareth then to the bus. saw suzie avec steve and gawley then got on the bus! went home and then to tescos!! sleep!!!
sunday and my ma's party! really happy to see mark! several alcholic beverages later... slightly tipsy car and jelly bean fun ensued.
VERY drunken cousin tee hee molly got "excited" with my cousin in his drunken state (she tried to make babies with his feet?!?!?!!! then to bed! aaron slept over. GOt up the next day... school... julie,victoria,philiy,aaron and i went for lunch. back to school then home.
didn't go to school yesterday... scribled in book and listened to music...
today... in school and lord of the rings is out!! GOD DAMN IT i wanna see the film... i'm gonna go on friday morning/afternoon tho.
soz julie i'm just wasteing your lunchtime! or something along those lines (sp)
cet are you going to the venue on friday? i'll call you later if i can.

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FRIDAY
school...home...babysitting.

SATURDAY / SUNDAY
01:00 - babysitting
02:00 - babysitting
02:27 - text message from mark
03:00 - babysitting
03:30 - babysitting
04:00 - home :) yay
12:30 - town
met up with aaron, nicki, gareth, victoria, julie, michael (gay), gerard and several more...
think of a distraction... ****went to post office****
primark... (disturbing!!!!!!!) stickers (look! low riser)
bus, home, mark arrives, we get ready to go out.
marks hat it THE SEX!!
Cornucopia
penny's and pints, pretty glowing drinks, music and fun
AAHHH twas all dark!!
home
sleep
christmas tree!!
20:30 - babysitting
02:45 - home
I = V tired!!!!!!

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so YAY!! tis friday!! WOO HOO!!! and yay cherry chewing gum!! yay nightwish!!!

and WELL DONE TO JULIE
98% in the maths test!!!

tis freezing!! and i'm gonna pass out!! i had the weirdest dream last night but probably better not to write it on the net cos you'll all think i've gone mad... *sigh* pretty poster!!
"buy me some chewing gum and i'll pay you back?" - julie
"giggle" - victoria ..."that sounds soo wrong! - victoria
"how does that sound soo wrong?" - julie
///confused///
i didn't do as bad as i thought in maths but still pretty crap...

.........soon the earthlings will cower in fear............

yay weekend coming up!!!! and yes my friend the thinggy my mum's doing is on the 13th!!

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Yay nikki gave me random fake eyelashes today!! they all colourful!! pretty lol
*hugs to victoria and julie!!*
Tis thursday and only a day till the weekend!! yay can't wait till sat! tis gonna be fun!! i'm babysitting on fri night and will then have money to buy drink! yay!! not gonna get pissed tho... me and excessive alcohol should never be mixed!!
*hugs to cet*
yay lord of the rings!! i love that film!!! the return of the king coming soon!!! yay!
*hugs to nicki*
gurr biology field trip next week! tis gonna suck! and i'm missing out on babysitting (money) which i kinna need for Xmas!! but it shouldn't be too bad cos suzie and victoria are going with me! :
*hugs to aaron and marklar*
calculus test after lunch... didn't revise cos i'm hoping i can still remember it from add maths last year...

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What do you want me to say!!!??? how about "i'm fine!", "nothing that's been happening has effected me in the slightest!" is that what your expecting?? well not so! But hey what the fu*k does it matter? Life goes on and presently i have to go with it. so yeah i'm pretty sh*t at the moment! thanks for asking.

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Terror, this is what you call me...
i strike terror among men
i can't be bothered with what they think
i bare my cross, my soul, myself
i forgive... but i never forget
i've been put upon this earth in female form
but i can handle myself with the best of you
as well as the worst
and i often have
i have the right to remain silent
but i choose to speak, sing, scream
i am lips, hips, tits... i am the power of a woman
strong like music
true like friendship
but without my friends there would be no music... only spoken word

FU*KER!

i am able to change
so i live without regret, without remorse only a remix
i am drunk, i am sober
heaven doesn't want me and hell's afraid i'll take over
don't bother trying to censor me or shut me up
because it wont work
i am cold and distant yet warm and close
To those who deserve to see that side of me
part of me... the heart of me
I am me and I know exactly who I am, what I am and the wrath I bring
the ugly beauty, the lying truth, the virgin whore...
the quiet storm lover, a fighter, a saint, a sinner, a sister, a daughter old school......
a beginner. I have decorated my self with love, hate, truth...
you all of you, both of you, none of you...
more than one of you
with lips like sugar, eyes like meat. I've watched men come, go and cheat I sleep to
dream and dream of sleep.
I had a dream Joe that you were standing in the middle of an open road. I had a dream
Joe that your hands were raised up to the sky and your mouth was covered in foam. I've been crucified,
justified and mortified by my behavior, both feminine and masculine. I am contradiction and a juxtaposition.
my relief is my release and only time will tell all is well that ends well.
I am unsweetened, unclean...
being called drama queen, ex-girlfriend, ex-member...
the tantrum, the temper I point my finger...
take the blame and this time I will own the name because nobody is going to ruin me, if I have to I WILL RUIN MYSELF
AND IT WILL BE 'MY RUIN'

FU*KER!


As if you were born into a world of tears, you
always tend to look at the darker things in
life. Inside you crave attention yet push away
society, and you're a hopeless romantic. Drawn
to things like the occult and mysteries, you
spend your time daydreaming of "What
If's".


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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from now on i think i'll update before i read my emails....
*takes a deep breath*
perhaps i should invest in a little book of calm??...
anyway forgetting and writing up my weekend... yes umm weekend...
friday :) fun!! XD met up with everyone... then cet,moon,nicki left.
gang raped mark :P tee hee, pay phone AHHHHHH!!!! toilet outside UGC lol we got 5people into it(mark, aaron, julie, victoria and me)!!! :D so proud!!! mark slept over.
saturday... went into town met everyone... shopping... said bye to most people... went to pub, dropped penny's into frys drink (i didn't but aaron did "don't do it thats bad!!" tee hee!!) i drew a smily face :)
went to cinema with aaron and watched the third matrix film... twas all very over my head!! (i didn't see the second film!)
sunday mark came up and we finished the garden! walked to the bus stop on the phone to aaron and listened to other peoples convos. found the heart at the bus stop and then talked to mark for a while wile waiting for the bus to come twas funny!!! AAAHHHH lights all over the china dogs house!!!

"someones coming!"
"you too then?"

*rachel's stroking my head... off putting!!!*
GURRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!! ...and shes gone...

walked back home... went to the random horse show... twas freezing!! bloody flowers! pretty shetlands!! awww how sweet! sleepy ponies, jumping ponies, irretating dancers!! and home twas freezing again!!!
Very cold!! more cold!!
thinking
sleep
thinking
reading
sleep
thinking
get up and go to school... Very rushed homework!! thanks julie and then to maths where the bloody teacher didn't even collect it in!!! gurrrr!!
mindless classes... hot copper2 oxide ouch...
school library...read emails and posts...take a deep breath and begin...

it's another fu*king week till the next weekend!!! sh*t!!
ummm... rambeling...

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Somethings not rite... and i'm not talking about any of that sh*t (do what you want i don't care anymore), tho it may indirectly have something to do with it... i dunno i can't put my finger on it.
it's just a feeling, something bad's gonna happen.

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so you say...

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