Dear me.. poor girl.. why do you speak english here? Isn't it easier to tell the truth on your native language? Of course it isn't this way.. cos this is some kind of secret

As I learnt you had told some guy to dissapear because.... he made you feel pain... why so? You've fall in some kind of sipathy with him and you still have a boyfriend...
the love triangle as we can see, isn't it?

You know.. there is one answer to what ever language you speak where ever you live.. it's honesty... this is the voice of heart and it can't really kill cos it's true. But you should be totally cear in this way and very brave to speak all the truth.. so.. try this and never cover yourself up like this.. cos you are a part of this world of this planet, and every snce you have inside is needed by the planet and by the people that surround you.
Don't be afraid to be.. your honest self
thank you) nice practise for me)