oh, I never thought that it could happent. I loved. really.
I never thought that I can feel such a big feeling. That's amazing. "was"..
I loved good times, I loved bad times - all. But he didn't love me. He
wanna perfect person, but nobody is perfect. And I thought he will help me to change, but
he is too dump for this. Yes, he is fool. Sad.
I never wanted to kill myself cuz biy. It will be too stupid. And I;'m too pride for this.!
but on that moment, I didn';t tell him, but I had a very big problem with my heart.. I was at doctor and didn't
tell him..Be cause I didn't want that smb will know this. When you have problems with your heart or nerves -
it's not so good to talk.
On the next day he was disappearing. I thought it's all cuz his opa,
he was against us (now I think he is happy). I started to nerve of cause.!! And with every day
more and more problems with my heart cuz of this.
and one time he appeared and on that secord I was happy. But he told me
too much crap that on another second I thought my heart will stoped.
Be cause it's very FAST STRESS. And it was too dangerous for me. I'm luck that I can sit and write this
shit now. That I can breath!
then I was lucky that I'm alone, without his dumpness, but he was appeared bla bla..
Oh my lord, how I could be with such shit like he?
Now I understand that he is a slut, yeah - slut! He much be so, after all that shit which he did to me.
Now I change everything in my life. I'm another person and everyone so pleased to me.
I'm more calm and pretty)))
I know that he has my things. He didn't sent me them. Yesterday I came to the post and payed money for
reciving back to me his ugly bag. I was lucky, cuz it wasn't too late. I came too late to the post.
after 2 days I will have his stuff at my room.
I hate him even for this, that he didn't sent me. Stupid boy.
if he will call me one day (but I'm sure it will never happens) I will talk with him. it will be okay. But I think he will prefer to
call his canadian girl. Yeah, I'm sure about it. And I really don't care.
and all the time I remember his phrase - I will be alone my whole life..
hahaha
he is searching a girl like a crazy man. Wanna fuck every girl and kiss them all. For me
kiss it smth sacrament. For him - fun. Slut.
but it's his beautiful life without me and I wish him good luck.
if he will come (but I'm sure it will never happens) I will meet him.
but he will never come. He is a "bla bla mouth"
but I have to thank him about time wich we had.
